Hopes On the Streets

The rooftop Like how you were saying

Jack took me to the Rooftop. He starts talking about The Other newsies. "Careful of Mike and Ike they's da Pranksters. Oh and Race uh- He's interesting but you end up loving him." He kept talking about them. Okay, he's super sweet. Should I shoot my shot? I guess Jack could tell that I was Nervous or something Because he Gave me a Little One-armed Hug "You Okay Crutch? Don't worry! They are all super nice." 

"Hey Um, Jack?"

"Hm?" He looked at me, His eyes are beautiful- Crap. I think im swooning- What was I saying??? I can't remember my internal thoughts are too loud...

"I- Um- I forgot-" I giggled. He smiles- God... This boy is perfect- 

I laugh nervously, "Jack?" I look down at his shoes, then i got an idea. "I like your boots"

He looks at his shoes confused then looks at me and he understands, "Thanks. I got them from a unicorn" 

HES NOT STRAIGHTTTTTTT!!!!!! I HAVE A CHANCE!!!!!

"I'm Bisexual- I have a girlfriend-"

I feel my heart shatter, Everything just breaks, Keep it together Charlie- Please

"Why You ask?" He asks, looking right into my eyes, I look away

"I-I-I Um... Just... wondering" I smile shyly. I know I've heard about heartbreak... but it hurts, it feels like my heart is shattered...  "Um... Whos your girlfriend??" I know my voice is breaking but I don't care. I can't care. It's too late to care... He has a girlfriend you Flake! Why are they only nice when they are.... Unavailable. 

"Sarah Jacobs..." ...He's swooning just thinking of her...

These are words he will never say... not to me-  

"She's great I love her-" I smile, I know a tear falls, I immediately hide it, He wraps me in a hug.

"You okay, Crutchie?" He asked me, His arms wrapped tightly yet gently around me, I love hugs- they usually make me feel floaty-But this time- It feels comforting.

"Y-Yeah- It's just..." Think of a lie. think of a lie. think of a lie. "I'm just... everything is happening so fast- I just found out that I have polio and Well that refuge place- I'm freaking out Jack- It's scary! I-I can't- Too Fast-" I realize I'm sobbing, I'm not lying... I am terrified of it...

He simply Hugs me tight, I sob into his chest. He whispers in my ear "Crutchie- I promise You will never go there, I promise. I will die before they even lay a hand onto you, Ya hear? Neva-" I stay in the hug for so long as I calm down, We sit down and he was one arm hug around me and we watch the sunset on his penthouse. 

I sat there thinking How can I get over someone who I never dated?