Im sorry

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Why tf is he mad? I got up and walked into the hallway where he was

Y: mohenny!!
Ma: fuck you!
Y: omg why are you mad?
Ma: just leave me alone
I tried to give him a hug but he pushed me off him
Ma: don't fuckin touch me
Y: do you want me to eat? Is that why you're mad, because I'm not eating?!
Ma: yes! Why can't you just fucking eat?!
Y: omg YOU'RE pressed because I'M not eating how that make sense?
Ma: if you don't wanna eat that's fine just don't expect me to give you the attention you're craving so bad
Y: NIGGA WHAT ATTENTION? What attention am I craving?
Ma: mine I'm guessing cause ain't nobody else in this house and all of a sudden your not eating.
Y: you know what, fine. I'll eat.

I went downstairs and took the extra food I made out the microwave and started eating

Y: are you happy now?
Ma: yes! All you had to do was eat. And it took you like 20 minutes just to do so
Y: because it not gonna stay DOWN!
Ma: what you mean?
Y: I have cancer. The chemo is messing with my digestive system!
Ma: what- why didn't you tell me you had cancer??? Wtf y/n- are you gonna be ok?

He started tearing up which made me cry. And this is why I didn't tell him.

Y: don't cry mohenny, I'm fine.
Ma: how are you so sure of that?
Y: I had it before, when I was in pre-k and I made it out
Ma: but how do you know you're gonna make it out now? That was mad long ago
Y: ima be fine, I promise
Ma: what happened to no promises?
Y: I know I said no promises but I'm making this one an exception. I promise you, ima be fine baby
Ma: I'm sorry mama. Idk why I forced you to eat
Y: it's ok baby you didn't know. And I'm sorry I didn't tell you
Ma: it's ok mama, just..no more secrets ok?
Y: ok

He leaned in to kiss me but I pushed him out the way and ran to the nearest bathroom to throw up with him following close behind. He put my hair in a ponytail with the scrunchy he keeps on his wrist and rubbed my back. I got up and brushed my teeth again.

Ma: are you gonna tell the boys?
Y: why so they can accuse me of lying?
Ma: they won't this is serious and they need to know
Y: why?
Ma: because they're your Bestfriends and they should know
Y: if you think ima die just say that
Ma: why would you say that-
Y: why else would you want me to tell Vallyk and Derek? And Mike knew he was gonna die and didn't tell any of us
Ma: why do our conversation always revert back to Mike? Why do you keep bringing him up
Y: I don't get why you're always so pressed when I bring him up. Y'all was basically family, you called him your brother.
Ma: because he was your first love y/n! And then y'all got married and he broke your heart so bad that you didn't date or take anyone seriously for 8 almost 9 fricken years!
Y: ok but I still don't get why you-
Ma: I'm jealous ok? I'm jealous that you chose him over me all those times, that he was your first love and I wasn't, that he was your first husband, that he was so good to you that you can't even forget his name for a second
Y: I'm sorry-
Ma: you're not. You just feel bad now that I've actually said something.

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