Emery [bxb]

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The wedding party will include Danny, Matthias, Will, Madeline, Bella, me, and some of Em and Aly's friends. His parents and grandma will be coming out. Rich, Caleb, Janie, my aunts and uncles and parents are all coming too.

As the date approaches, the mounting realization that this is really happening threatens to crush me.

It didn't hit me all at once, but in several bouts of sudden, lurching queasiness. Took me all these years to figure it out. After all, I didn't know heartbreak before Emery. Too late now, by at least a decade.

I find myself sniffling on my mom's lap.

"Alright, alright, settle down, now, Brandon. There are plenty of fish in the sea."

"But Emery is my fish."

"Then... Stand up like a man and tell her that boy is yours," she counsels.

But that's the thing. I don't think he is anymore.

Just let it be. Let it go.