Tw: bad things. Bad thoughts. Like really bad thoughts. Sorry. I'm tired atm. Comment tw ig and I'll add them? Weird. :/
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I'm so tired.
I wanna go home.
Why cant I go back?
Why do I have to suffer?
What did I do wrong?
Why do i deserve this?
Why am i such a failure?
Why am i a bad person?
Why do i want to die?
Why am i not strong?
I'm so tired
I'm so tired of fighting
Of trying
Of staying here
I dont wanna be here anymore.Recently, I started crying again. I also started watching Naruto. I always watch shows when I feel numb. ?
I dont know if me crying more means I'm getting better or worse.
I dont want to cry but I do want to cry.
I need to cry
Why cant I cry?
What is wrong with me?
What do I do?
How do I know I cant trust you hypothetical person giving me advice?Who am i?
How do you know?
Why do you think your right?
I dont understand...
I just want to be happy
I just want my friends to be happy
I just want my family to be happy
Why aren't they happy?
Why am I not happy?
I should be happy. Right?
I have food, good grades, good friends, a roof over my head, a room, internet, a phone, a laptop.
I have so much
I should be grateful
Why... why do I feel like this?Why do I feel numb?
Why am I lying?
I'm faking it all
No one will believe me
Its not real
It's in my head
I suck
I shouldnt fake these things
I'm a bad person
Who am I?
Why?
What?
How?
Why?I'm sorry.
I just wanna be okay.
I'm such a burden
Sorry...
I dont like myself
I want to
But I just. Cant.I am barely breathing
How am I still here?
I'm such a disappointment.
Who am i?
What's my name?
Why does that make me sad?Why am I ugly?
Why do I suck at talking?
Why cant I remember anything?Why do I hate myself.
I want to rip out my throat and stomach
I wanna puke up my guts.I want to have a reason to feel the way I do.
I want someone to bully me or beat me up so I can be mad. So I can finally feel something.I dont want to be a girl.
Please kill me
Nobody wants me to be a boy
They think I'm ugly and disgusting and a liar
I dont want to be hated but I cant be a girl I'm not a girl please free me from this body.
I need let out
Please
Please
I just wanna be happy
I just
Fucki ng
I want to rip my skin off
PleaseI feel numb
I feel emotions
IdkWhen I feel emotions, I dont know how to express them. That's why I hate my birthday or Christmas. What am I supposed to say? What if they think I'm ungrateful if I dont react enough? What if I actually like it and I want to stim? They'll think I'm an idiot. They'll hate and judge me. What if my expressions falter? What if they think I'm not grateful or think I dont like their gift?
What do I do?
Why does no one answer me when I ask them what to do?I feel like I'm drowning. I cant keep swimming. It's cold, I'm alone, I'm tired... wheres my happy ending?
Am I a boy or a girl?
Fuck gender
I hate it
I hate society
I hate gender
I hate people
I hate men
I hate women
I hate nb people
I hate them all
I hate all of them
Every single oneWhy are my friends... my friends?
I'm not a good person. I just act like one.
I'm never happy. I'm moody. I'm dramatic. I'm not funny. Im mean. Im judgy. I'm cruel. I'm ugly. I just suck in general.My best friend says we aren't close anymore. I didnt know what to respond with. I stopped telling her things because she said she couldn't handle my problems and her problems? What?
What did I do wrong? I did everything I was supposed to...I'm so stupid.
I hate myself.
It's not her fault.
I know I'm the one at fault here.
I know I put up walls
I know im useless and a burden.
And I dont blame her.
I dont blame anyone.I would leave me too.
Why is she still here?
Shed be better off without me.
I'm glad my friends are friends because now they can comfort each other when I die. I want to die. I dont wanna live anymore. What's the point.But I'll continue fighting. For no reason other than I'm a bitch.
I deserve to suffer anyways right?÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷÷
Sorry.
Thanks for coming to my ted talk.
Take care of yourself... whoever's read this.;_; haha im so funny. :)
YOU ARE READING
I just need to let it out
Non-FictionThis has sensitive topics a derealization? Idk but basically the not happy thoughts. Its literally just me ranting since I'm incapable of actually opening up to people. -_- tw: mental illness and rants sorry? I wouldn't recommend reading....