𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 : 𝐒𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐭
Lovely - Billie Eilish, Khalid
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I could still hear the sounds.. outside.. what's.. happening?
I was alone.. They left.. finally...
I couldn't move.. It.. hurts..
"SEARCH THE ROOMS! NOW! "
This... voice. It can't be..
"You can't barge into our house like this." my brother shouted at the familiar intruder.
Oh.. No.. Please.. Don't do anything to him..
"We found him. He's not.. in a good condition.." It was a cop.
I could feel the footsteps running towards me.
I looked up weakly.
Seojun.
He was looking at me with those eyes. He was.. crying...
"Don't.. cry.. It's okay.. I.. am not hurt.. "
He held my body against his chest being careful that I didn't get hurt.. I could see the tears.. in his eyes..
Don't cry.. for me..... I don't want you to get hurt..
I don't deserve you...
"I am sorry..I am so sorry.." He said while crying...
I don't deserve your kindness...
How? How did this fucking happen?
I should have never left him... alone. It's all my fault.
Damn it!
I looked at him. His eyes didn't show any emotions.. His body was covered in bruises and blood..
I need to take him to the hospital first..
I carried him in my arms and took him to the car...
"Take me home.. "
"What? We need to go to the hospital first.. You need to get treated first.."
" JUST TAKE ME HOME DAMN IT! I need a moment to myself.."
He was shocked. This is the first time I shouted at him..
I am sorry.. But I can't do this..
He kept quiet for a while and said..
"The house is on the way.. We can stop for some time.. I'll bring your clothes.. But after you finish, we will go straight to the hospital. I don't want to hear anything else on this matter." He was serious.
But it doesn't matter anymore.. does it?
I looked outside the window. The sky looked darker than usual as if it was hiding the faint stars that guided it's path..
After a while, we stopped infront of our house..
I went inside while limping and reached the bathroom..
I locked the door and..fell on the floor..
I couldn't feel anything anymore..
My body felt weak but the numbness in my chest didn't allow me to feel anything...
My back was still bleeding from the cuts but I can't do this anymore..
This pain.. this endless pain..
It won't ever end...
But...
I deserved.. all of this..
I have been running from my past.. just to make myself feel better..
But I can't... not anymore..
I was the reason he died..
I let him die...
Everyone around me will get hurt..
Seojun will too..
There's no reason.. for me to be here...
I am sorry..
I tried..
Please remember I tried..
There were no tears... anymore..
I opened the drawer to bring out the familiar looking object..
I need to do this..
I let the cold blade pierce through my wrist oozing the blood out my veins..
Three more..
And a vertical one...
Done...
I could see the cuts and the blood all over my hand. I let go of the blade.. And sat on the floor..
"Suho?"
"It's hurts.. " I blurted out unconsciously but almost immediately covered my mouth with my other hand..
"Suho? Suho..What are you doing? OPEN THE DOOR! " He said while holding and turning the knob of the handle.
I am sorry...Seojun.
Please be happy...
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