Right Guy, Wrong Time.

Chapter 18

CC's POV:

I looked around and everyone was crying. "Uh - what's wrong guys?" Selena asked. Jake stood up and wiped his eyes "Ash-shley and Le-Leeann.. they go-got shot." He stuttered then cried while Katie hugged him tight. I started shaking "this isn't real is it?" I said looking at jinxx who was hiding his face away from Jordan. I was trying to process everything that was happening.  Then it hit me. I sobbed loudly "Ashley got shot? Is - is he going to be okay?" I fell down on my knees and punched the floor. "Why?" I cried. Selena grabbed my arm and I jerked away. "Stop" I said while getting up.

I was still crying and walked down to the bathrooms near the cafeteria. "Why... why, Ashley and Leeann?" I began to cry out when there was a knock on the stall door. "CC?" I heard Jake yell. I sniffled and wiped my nose "y-yeah." "Open the door." I opened the Door and crashed into Jakes arms. "Why Ash, man?" I cried more. He began crying "I-I don't know.." i hugged him one last time "I'm going to go.." i said while I went out to the waiting room. I hugged everyone and said goodbye. I gave Selena a kiss. "Can you ride with jinxx? I need to be alone" I said with alot of thoughts going through my mind. "Yes baby" she said giving me a kiss and wiping away one of my tears. "I love you.." "I love you too." I got in the car and headed home.

I entered my room. "Why Ash? Why Not Me!? Why Him. Wwhy" I began crying uncontrollably. "He was my best friend. And Leeann? She's so young and innocent." I Punched The Wall and Made A hole In it. I walked to the kitchen and grabbed some Jack Daniels trying to drink away the pain. "Why not me.?" I said as I grabbed a razor blade. "Why not me..?" I sobbed and drug it across my leg. Once...twice.. this doesn't help. I threw the blade and punched the wall again. "I need to do this." I got up and walked to the garage and found a rope. I got a piece of paper and wrote a note.

"Dear guys and Selena,

I love you all soo much.

I just can't handle the pain.

Ash I hope you get better..

Love,

Christian"

I folded the paper nice and neatly. I hung the rope on the banister and had one end around my neck. "Goodbye guys" at that moment Selena came running in soaking wet. "Baby no" she cried while running up the stairs.  "I have to" I said as a tear fell. I leaned forward and she grabbed Me back. "No. I love you so much, the guys love you, the bvb army loves you." She kissed me and held me tight while I cried in her arms. She saw where I had cut. "Baby." She kissed me again "you were a year clean." I hid my face "I'm sorry." She hugged me tighter "come on its fine. Let's go get you washed up."

Omg sad right? Sorry that I keep delaying about Ashley and Leeann. Hope yall like.