𝕃𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕤𝕚𝕔𝕜 𝔹𝕠𝕪𝕤 • seodo/Hodo

9.

Geonhak PoV.

I was wide awake. It was about 4 am and I was drop-dead tired but unfortunately, my thoughts had other plans.
I'm trying to sleep for 5 hours now since I had classes tomorrow but every time I close my eyes, I see Seoho. Lying beside me, sleeping safe and sound. He seemed too innocent and peaceful, it made me feel like I had to Protect this precious heart. Sounds weird right?

Yeah.

Thought so.

And now, since I thought about him sleeping next to me, my thoughts started circling around him and him only.

How he protected me, cared for me, and helped me with whatever that was. How did he know what he had to do? Why did I have this weird fluttery feeling every time he looked at me with his eyes full of adoration? Is that still being friends? I don't feel that way with the others... This  is so confusing...

I started getting uncomfortable in my bed, so I stood up, took my favorite sweater, and went downstairs. I put on some shoes and went outside to calm my mind a bit.

The air was fresh and slightly cold when it hit my face as soon as I opened the door. It was refreshing but also did not help with my sleepiness, instead, it woke me up even more.

I went to one of my favorite secrets "I'm lost in thoughts and don't know what to do but I can't ask anyone either" places. No one knew where those were and I liked it that way. No way to be disturbed, no one follows me here after a fight, I can just turn everything around me off and get lost in the beautiful view.

It's a secret way throw a bush, up to a hill from which you can look over a part of the city. It's breathtaking. Upon the hill is a Tree with a single swing turned into the direction of the view. After 20 minutes, I'm finally there and sat down on the swing, legs swinging around. I looked at my feet at first, still lost in thoughts until I remember that the sunrise should be in a couple of minutes. Looking up, I see the sun peeking from the bottom of the view.

It kind of reminds me of Seoho. Unpredictable, you never know which colors exactly are going to be in the sunrise. Like Seoho, you never know what he's going to do next! His head is probably full of ideas, be it bad or good Ideas he is always happy at the end. How can a Person be so cheerful? He is going through something as well, why is he trying to help me first?

Yellow itself makes me think about his face, smiling like an idiot, eyes almost closed because of his eye smile, him glowing because of happiness, brightening the mood for everyone who sees it, or him almost throwing himself back because of laughing. This habit of his, scrunching his nose cutely or how he starts randomly playing with his earrings or pouts out of nowhere. Every time he pouts, he also puffs his cheeks which makes them look even more squishy if that's even possible. Also, his habit of hiding his face behind his hands whenever he's embarrassed.

I realized how much I observe from how he acts, and still, I wouldn't know what he's going to do next. He's like a diary with thousands of lockers, he might seem so open, but he actually hides his true emotions pretty well.

As the sun starts to rise, I just sat there. All thoughts went. Mind blank. Enjoying the beautiful view of the sun starting a new day on this hell. You see, I don't hate the earth, I just hate how some people chose to live here, rude and disrespectful, trying to shatter the world of others.

Suddenly I feel anger against a person I barely know. Seoho's ex-boyfriend. I only met him twice, but I knew I didn't like him from the start. But Seoho always looked so happy, talking about him and how lovely their dat5e was. But there was Times, Seoho came home crying because this Monster ditched him for some other friend or forgot their date 5 times in a row. I would often be the one cheering Seoho up by playing dumb games with him. One time it was because This Bitch forgot that Seoho and he wanted to picnic in the Park, but he didn't show up and left Seoho sitting in the rain, munching the wet sandwiches until I picked him up because of the rain. It was suspicious because he would always text until he showed up, but he texted me even an hour after he should've arrived. When we came home, he broke down in my arms. I hated him for how he treated my best friend, but I couldn't tell him that. I mean I did but Seoho wouldn't listen anyway, too blinded by this dumb feeling.