Love of Forts

Lost without her

I stood in the bathroom as the blood trickling down my hand as if it was the tears Clara shed when she took her life. I turned the water on as I sat in the shower with the water beating down on me as I sobbed harder. The tears I shed were for Clara I screamed harder

Justin POV
I entered the shower as he sat behind me I laid my head on his chest as I cried harder

Just breathe I said holding my daughter

Her body shook in my hands as she cried. I couldn't even imagine how I would feel of Andrew died. I held her tightly as I let the water hit both of us as I started crying myself

Britney POV
Britney walked in to us crying together

Hey cry babies I said

Justin got out of the shower crying as Kelsey laid down on the floor of the shower in her wet clothes. I got her dressed with warm pjs. She lunged her depressed body to couch as she curled up on a tight ball as she continued to cry

If you guys need anything just let me know Andrew said walking out the front door

You are such a good father I said kissing Justin on the lips

Hey Alexa play Reqiume from Dear Evan Hansen Kelsey said with a shutters voice

Shelby started singing loudly as if she was screaming at Brent

After Kelsey was done she collapsed on the couch and fell asleep

I'm heading to bed I said

I'll stay here with Kelsey Justin said

Justin POV

I turned off all the lights I sat down to watch something and Kelsey moved and laid her head on my lap as she cried and slept

Early the next morning I woke up to make pancakes with a pile whipped cream

Dad whimper Kelsey

Yes honey I said

Where Clara? Kelsey said

I didn't know what to say

I'm gonna go sit on the front porch Kelsey said

Okay I replied

Kelsey left

Britney walked down

She in denial I said

What? Britney said

She just  asked me if Clara could eat with us I said so heartbroken

She still denying the death Britney said

I finished making breakfast and took it out to Kelsey

Hey breakfast I tell her

Yeah I'm waiting to see if Clara is coming Kelsey said

I sat down in the rocket chair next to Britney

What do we do? I said

We get professional help for her Britney said

She been through so much I said

I know but she will come around Britney said

Where is she I've called three time Kelsey said in frustration

Kelsey don't your want a pipping hot pancake I asked

I want drugs Kelsey said

She going back to her old ways Britney said

Hey calm down she will get through this as long we stay by her side I said

Omg she hasn't called me Kelsey yelled throwing her phone and running inside

I ran after her and she destroyed her room and she was on the floor crying

This is all my fault Kelsey yelled punching a hole in her wall

Hey it not your fault I said concealed her in my arms

You wanna go to church Kelsey with me and Britney I said

She looked at me

Will Clara be there? Kelsey asked

I just took her hand and we walked to the porch

We're gonna go to church I said to Britney

I drove them to the church

We entered the church

I sat on one end of the pew and Britney was on the other side and Kelsey in the middle just if she wanted to run we could stop her

As I'm praying

I'll give you my life just for Clara back Kelsey said praying

I'll give 5,000 dollars to have Clara back Kelsey said

I just sat there listening to her Baraging for her friend back I felt so bad

Kelsey sit back I said

No Kelsey said loudly

Hey she not coming back I said

She is I believe that god will bring her back Kelsey said

After church was done I walked to our pastor

Hey Justin Pastor Jesse said

Can we go to more private area? I asked

Yes Pastor Jesse said

What can I do for you Pastor Jesse asked

My daughter Kelsey friend Clara died and Kelsey having a tough time and I know you have counseling training is there way you could talk to her I asked

Yes I can talk to her Pastor Jesse said

Thanks I said

He shook my hand

I walked to the family and we went to the car

Kelsey was getting upset

I want Clara Kelsey said

Clara is dead I said

No she isn't I saw her walking down the street Kelsey said

I just focus on driving trying not burst into tears

Justin I'll take her home you go to Andrew I said

Okay I said

I dropped the girls off

I drove to Andrew

My buddy Matt and Andrew were there

Hey Justin Andrew said

I need a beer now

Okay Andrew said

I grabbed a beer and downed it

Are you okay Matt asked

Kelsey has lost her mind I can't help him now I have to send her to a therapist because I can't help her I said

Who Kelsey Matt asked

She my daughter who going through shit I said

Oh okay Matt said

I fell bad I got simply help her I have send her to someone which breaks my heart I said

What even happen? Matt asked

Here best friend committed suicide and she going through the stages of grief I said