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Infected with Darkness - Thoughts & Feelings

Poetry

A look inside of my mind and how Depression and Anxiety plague my thoughts and feelings. For those who understand. For those who want to understand. ❗️-Trigger Warning-❗️ • Dark thoughts/themes • Mental illness • Self-harm • Substance abuse

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Alone & Numb

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by Bouska

by Bouska

06-21-2021

I'm so lonely that it has become too overwhelming to think about.

I thought about it today. It caused a few tears to fall, just for a moment.

I've become so numb to being alone that it's normal.

I started writing this feeling sad but now I feel nothing.

The one or two minutes I felt something didn't last. It never lasts.

The numbness is such a powerful defense mechanism in my mind that it simply will not allow my feelings to surface.
Numbness has become the default setting in my brain.