it was the day of Gotti funeral...Zay was at my parents house while me and Bagg was at home getting ready
"you almost ready babe?" i asked Bagg walking into the room
he nodded
we went downstairs and got in the car
i drove to the church while Bagg looked out the window
"i love you Demario...you are so strong in every way...i need you to be strong for Gotti kids...those yo god babies, i need you to help Keisha with the kids and you know i'll help you...you know i'm with you every step of the way...always"
he turned over and looked at me
"thank you Ashae" he said with a warm smile
we pulled up and got out the car
he put on his all black glasses and we walked into the church hand in hand
it was a open casket, we walked over and seen the body
we both started crying as soon as we seen him
i kissed his forehead and we went to go sit next to Keisha and the kids
we sat down and waited for the service to start
as we were waiting they started playing I'll be Missing You by Puff daddy and Faith Evans
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin' of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
Bagg was crying and crying...i never seen him like this...it made me so hurt and i cried with him
It's kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smilin' down
Watchin' us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
'Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts big I just can't define (can't define)
i looked over and Gotti daughter Dearra came to sit with us
"hey love...you ok?" i asked
she nodded
"can i come back with y'all?" she asked looking me in the eyes
she had beautiful big brown eyes, you can tell she been crying all night and day
"of course baby...come here" i responded opening my arms
she fell into my arms and started crying Bagg looked over at us
"it's about to start" he said lifting up his glasses to rub his eyes
Keisha and Gotti other 3 kids came next to us
i waved at them and they waved back
i held Dearra in my arms as the service began
1 hour later
"would anyone like to come up and say something about Mario?" the preacher asked
Bagg got up and fixed his suit
he went up the stairs and went to the podium
"hello and good afternoon to all...for those he do not know me, i am Demario, Mario best friend, i knew him since 3rd grade...and ever since then we just clicked, it was hard to separate us...this was my brother, my cousin, my best friend in one...he never left by my side...we was broke together and got rich together. Now that he's gone, i don't know what i'm gone do without him...i got Keisha and the kids for ever Mario, i love you."
he came back down and sat next to me
"i'm glad you did that" i said
he looked over at me and smiled
2 hours later
the funeral was over, we all got up and went outside
"we gone meet y'all at the gravesite" i said to Dearra
she nodded and went with her mom
me and Bag got in the car
i facetimed Lexi ipad
"hey baby, where Zay?" i asked
"uhhh with mommy" she responded
"soo...gave the phone to mommy then"
she went in parents room and gave him the ipad
"hi papa, i miss youuuuuu"
he started smiling
"lemme see" Bagg said looking over
i showed him the phone
"fatmannnn, i miss you boy!"
he looked up and started laughing
"ok ima call you once i leave, bye baby love you!"
i hung up and put my phone back in my purse
we got out the car and met with everyone
we watched his casket go lowered
Bagg was holding onto me
25 minutes later
"Dearra comin back with us" i said holding Bagg hand walking towards the car
"Keisha invited us to go get something to eat too" i said looking up at him
"ok" he responded
we got to the car and got in
Dearra came running towards the car and got in
"hey y'all" she said
"hey love" i said smiling back at her
"yo" Bagg said
"you wanna go get something to eat with yo siblings and mom?" i asked
"umm...me and my mom aren't really on speaking terms right now..." she said with her head down
"why? what's wrong?" Bagg said pulling off
it got quiet
"Dearra, what's wrong?" he asked again
"...i'm pregnant..." she mumbled
Bagg looked over at me and i looked back at him
the drive home was silent
