It has been a week since I left Zy house. I have been staying in a hotel since, I really didn't want to be bothered. Yes I took Lani with me but it wasn't like I was keeping her away from Zy. Zy had been texting me non stop but I just muted his texts and calls. Then he had the nerve to text me off my email. Like nigga is you crazy? But the only person that knew where I was, was my mom.
I just couldn't get my head around the fact she had his baby. I thought I was gonna have his first child. I wondered does Mama V even know about this. I really don't know what I did to deserve this. I was gonna end up talking to him eventually but now? Nah I can't do it.
My thoughts got interrupted by my phone ringing. I picked it up and seen it was my mom facetiming me and I answered.
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"Wheres Kk?" She asked calling Lani by the nickname she gave her
"Um yea im doing fine but she's sleep" I said as I laughed
"Girl I was gonna ask. But how have you been with the situation?" She asked
"I have a lot of emotions im feeling but things happen for a reason I guess" I said as I shrugged my shoulders
"Well have you talked to him?" She asked
"No not ever since left" I admitted
"Jada I know you are not keeping Lani away from her father" She said
"Its not like that but-"
"Jada Melonie Wright now you know thats not fair to him. I know what happened was real messed up but Lani has nothing to do with it. Its probably hurting him that your keeping Lani away from him" She argued
"Maybe he should hurt" I said
"Jada what are talking about?" She asked me
"Maybe he will feel my pain when he kept that secert from me. Im tired of getting hurt by him. I love him mom I really do but love shouldn't hurt me this bad. Im tired of getting hurt in the end, its his turn now" I cried
"Don't say that because you know you don't mean it. I need you two to actually have a conversation and that means no arguing and listen to each other. Kk is gonna want to have both of her parents in her life and on the same page. Im not saying you have to get back together but get it together before Kk hits that age of understanding" She said
All I did was nod. She was right but I just was not ready.
"Jada call him. I love you" She said
"I love you too" I said as I wiped my tears hanging up
I put my phone down and cuddled up against Lani and shut my eyes.
