metanoia ⋆✩⋆ kurapika x reader

Love x Or x Lust

Another Sunday-- Kurapika and I sat on the bed, watching a movie on the TV. It was around 3pm. 

"Y/N, can I ask you something?" Kurapika asks, keeping his eyes on the TV. 

"Go ahead." 

"What do you want to do in life? Do you have a goal?" He turns to me. 

I thought for a moment. I didn't really have an actual life goal-- apart from staying with the troupe. 

"Uhm-- I'm not sure. I just want to get back at my parents after everything they've done to me." 

"What will you do after that?" 

"Nothing, I guess."  

Kurapika stays quiet, almost like he was thinking of something to say. I awkwardly sit in silence, with my legs criss-crossed. 

The silence was irritating, so I decided to say something. "Your goal is to avenge your clan, right?" 

He looks at me, then nods. "Yes, and I won't stop until every last member of the Kurta has been avenged." 

I had a sick feeling in my stomach. A feeling of extreme guilt. I didn't participate in the Kurta massacre, but it sure felt like I contributed to it. After all, I am a part of the Phantom Troupe-- the people that Kurapika hated the most. There was no way I could let him find out that I'm a spider. 

"You know, I haven't felt this untroubled in a while. It's almost like-- you bring out a whole different side of me without even trying. A good side of me," Kurapika says in a low tone. 

"Is that so?" I smile, turning towards him. "I'm glad I make you feel that way. Honestly, you make me feel the same way." 

Kurapika's eyes meet with mine. I was almost lost in his soft, gray eyes. 

"Y/N, you're really pretty, y'know." 

My eyes widen for a split second. "Oh yeah? You're one to talk." I give him a cheeky grin. Kurapika blushes. I could tell he was the type to get easily flustered, so I used that information to my advantage. 

I had only just noticed how close we were to each other. Our shoulders were just barely touching. Kurapika's eyes traveled down to my lips, then back up to my eyes. 

"What are you thinking of?" I say while smiling, slowly inching my face closer to his. 

"What do you think?" Kurapika's eyes were now fixed on my lips. 

"Whatever you're thinking of doing, just do it already"

Kurapika looks into my eyes, staring for a couple seconds. "Are you sure?" He says, holding back a smile. 

I nod. And with that, he places both his hands on my cheeks, pressing his lips against mine. He pushed his body closer, his hands now slowly wandering down my body, stopping just below my waist. My mind goes blank and my body goes stiff. 

"Is this okay?" He whispers. I nod. My body relaxes into him. His soft lips moved with mine as he presses his body against me, letting me feel almost every part of him. My heart was racing. I wrap my arms around his shoulders, leaning farther back until I was completely laid down on the bed, with him on top of me. 

Time had felt like it stopped. Nothing else in the world existed but me and him. Fireworks glowed throughout my body with the touch of Kurapika's lips on mine. I had never felt so euphoric. It was as if he wasn't the timid, quiet boy anymore. I could feel the lustful, sensual aura surrounding us both.

His lips slowly move down to my neck while slipping his fingers underneath my shirt.  I shudder a bit. His kisses became hungrier, leaving faint marks on my neck. He unlatches my bra with one hand. I move my hands to the back of his neck, weaving my fingers through his hair.  His fingers fumble with my pants. Then he slowly slips them off. 

I didn't want this to stop. My heart was racing. I felt his breathing become quicker. I've never felt this ecstatic with anyone else before. 

Kurapika lifts his head up a bit, looking into my eyes. His blue eyes sparkled with love and lust.  He moves down to my bare thighs, but then that euphoric look in his eyes had faded away.

I look up at him. His eyes were no longer blue-- they were burning scarlet.