Mr. Jox

Chapter 48

I shake my head, "No, it's me. Last night shouldn't have happened and I'm sorry." I finish zipping up my boots and quickly opened the door.

Jaxon jumped way too quick to capture me and not let me go so easy. Thank goodness he has underwear on, or else he would be exposed to passing hotel participants. He grabs my hips and maneuvers me into the room, to stay. "Please don't leave," he pleads with hungry eyes. I don't want to stay here and feel guilty about what I've done. I know my father would be so disappointed.

I looked down, intending to avoid any contact with him. My body rejected his touch, wanting him to not even touch me. He reeled me in with a sick, twisted game that shot my mind with rock salts. "I have to go," I say, in a quiet voice that wouldn't dare to even speak.

"Are you running? I asked you if you wanted to, you said yes!" Jaxon knew it; he knew I wasn't strong enough to deal with this. We didn't even use a condom last night!

I felt emotional tears roll up; it's the best time for me to be fertile and conceive a baby. "I'm sorry but last night shouldn't have happened. I hope that you understand, because I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry, I have to go." I struggle to open the doorway and failed to when Jaxon grasped what happening.

His eyes were dreamy when they were teary. It was murky infinity in his eyes as he plead for me not to go. "I can't lose you, Elena. Please don't leave like this. I want to see you." His heart was cracking under my given pressure. Why does it matter when he got me in bed? I never meant for it to get this bad. I should've been a lot more perfect in keeping my heart guarded. He tried to keep my attention, by cradling my vision to peer into his.

I shake my head from his hands, "No, please don't do that. I have to go, my taxi is probably here." I'll thank myself later. "Goodbye, Jaxon. I can't- I can't do this. I can't be your wife and just forget this ever happened."

"Elena..." He snarls, clutching my hand. "I'm sorry and I'll make it better. Please don't leave me. I need you to be my wife more than the bargain." His grope tightens, bruising me lightly.

I yank my arm free and back out of the hotel room. If I stay with Jaxon, I wouldn't be able to focus on my main goals. We only spent a week together and I'm sick of this feeling of being in love with Jaxon. I've never loved someone- other than family members. This isn't what I expected love to be, which scares me. But I'm willing to take a break from Jaxon to figure out what I want. This week has been draining for me, mainly because I've never had this much attention from someone.

I break away from him and leave him behind. I can't handle me veering down a road I'm not truly comfortable with. Especially if it's going to be guaranteed to lead straight to marriage.