how do you know
if it's getting bad again?
is it
when
you don't remember the last time you
showered?
what's the sun look like again?
is it
when
you look in the mirror
and
you can't recognize the person
staring back at you?
when your skin feels tight, your stomach feels
weird
like
endless?
no
maybe
empty?
lonely?
my feet feel weird
I can't recall the last time I left my bed
the imprint
of the feelings
left on the sheets
yell at me
to come back
when I try to
leave
I don't know how to cry anymore
It all feels so
numb
I don't remember it
feeling
like
this
how did it feel again?
comfy
homely
so
so
tired
why does feeling
sad
exhaust the
shit
out of me?
I sleep too much
I think
It feels
just right
but
I get in trouble for
sleeping for
16 hours
is that so bad?
I don't think so
it makes me feel better
I think
is this
what it feels like
when it's getting
bad
again?
