evanna

13.

(sorry if there's ever mistakes i don't reread my chapters very well)

anna pov
i'm so scared right now because we just got to the beach but i wanna swim for awhile first then tell her

so we're in the water after we set up the trunk with some things so we can sit in it because that sand gets to messy

eva tried splashing me so i grabbed her bridal style and threw her in the water then she got up and pulled me in with her

we came out of the water and just died out laughing we're having best time together we've been together for almost 6 months and in a few weeks ima give her that promise ring i've been meaning to just never thought of a perfect time yet so soon will be the time though

eva and i starred into eachother eyes and the sun was starting to set a bit i pulled her in a kissed her it was a passionate kiss we stayed like that for a few minutes

we pulled back and i unexpectedly pushed her in the water

she got so mad at me but she was laughing so i know she wasn't seriously mad just a lil pissed i guess i really do love eva

but let's get to the point now the real reason we came here to let it all out

"eva" i say she looks at me with her beautiful toasty brown eyes "mh mhm" she mumbled back

"ok so don't talk just listen till i'm done.." she nods "..ok so i'm telling you my past just in case some happens that i might have delt with in the past ok first off i'm sorry if i do this and so i have bpd, anxiety, and more just to lazy to say anymore but those are the main one.."

"..so and my dad abused my mom verbally never physically because he's not that type but also my mom never treated me like my brothers i was less chosen for things in my life living in michigan and i hated most people til i met you because you helped through so much and helped me figure out what real love was because my moms loved me but not like how you loved me so quickly.."

"..so yea that's basically how i grew up with my family and how i spent it.."

"bub it's alright you'll be ok your safe with with me now so don't you worry about anything.." eva pulled my chin up "..i'm here forever" she said smiling making me smile slightly "now let's go home so you can get some rest because you need it" eva said pulling me up "ugh fine" i dragged out

we got to the car she went to drive since i was tired i got in the passenger seat laying it back so i lay down on the way home even though i can't really sleep in the car because it's just so oddly shaped but we finally got home while i was just in a deep thinking process eva noticed once she opened the door and i didn't get out instantly

"anna hun are you ok?" she questioned while i was still thinking she snapped infront of my face a couple times and then i finally came out of it and then i got out and just walked to the door not saying anything almost like i was in a different dimension kinda

"anna you need to talk to me you just told me everything and now you probably think i'm going to judge which i'm not going to i'm here for you through everything that's why i committed to this..our relationship because i love you"

eva spoke up almost yelling but it was more of just talking sternly "eva i'm sorry i just don't know what to i say i just wanna go to sleep next to you with me in your arms because i just wanna be and feel safe in somewhere that i know that i can trust i'm so sorry" i blurted

"come on and lay down get changed if you want you can go to the bathroom and get changed so you have your privacy, i'll let you do what ever you want because i just need you to trust me and just you way to make you happy if that's ok with you" she softly spoke but also very firmly spoke but those eyes she gave me her soft look eyes she only gives me those when she truly means something so i know she really wants to help

i just walked up to our room and to the bathroom in there so i can splash cold water on my face to get me out of this thing i'm in, i know she's just trying to help but im just want to feel safe after seeing that devil man today and now he knows im not in michigan anymore and that im on my own with a girl which he hated that part but a lot of people in my life did so i just let it go

i got to bed seeing eva was there im pretty sure on tiktok but there was just a white bright like in her face so i don't know i walked up to her and just laid my head on her chest to see what she was she was looking up something i looked at the search bar is said "how can you help someone with bpd?" i just had a tear leave my eye

she is trying to help so i'm glad she is because eva, her, she is all i need to say happy or to make me feel safe no matter what she does even if i'm so mad at her she makes me feel loved

she got out of her mind and she cuddled more into me she put pressure on me to make me feel safe because i love when she puts pressure on me that's her signal to tell me without words that i'm ok

"anna you know that your safe right in my arms and in this house right?" eva calmly asked "yea eva i do know that i am it makes me happy"

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a/n sorry this took way to long to update i just forgot i owned this