𝐖𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 - 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐑𝐨𝐲𝐚𝐥𝐬

𝙛𝙞𝙛𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙣

𝙎𝙞𝙢𝙤𝙣

TW, Mentions of rape/ sexual Assault

being touched, touched, mauled, invade, degraded this what I felt last night, last night was the night of my nightmares. That guy has ruined everything that I liked about myself, he ruined me and that's not forgivable.

I can't even look at Wilhelm or any other person with out wanting to thrown up everywhere, even Sara I can't look at her. I know some people how wouldn't take this as a big deal would say I'm overreacting as many would say that I haven't reacted enough. It's not fair that Hugo enjoyed watching me like that, like I was a piece of meat on the ground.

" Simon you up?" Wilhelm asked as I laid in my bed curled in a ball

" Simon we are going to be late, are you ok?" he asked and tried to open the door but I locked it but I couldn't bring myself to answer him.

" Simon hello? maybe he's gone to breakfast already"

I cried for the 40th time since last night and will probably cry for the rest of my life until all my tears are gone. People will probably ask ' Simon why didn't you try and fight them off?' or ' why would you sit there and let that happen?' and all I can say to that is fuck you, that's all I tried to do but he was ten times stronger than me.

" Simon, come on Simon get up" I heard Sara outside

" Simon I know your in there, come on" she said and again and I tried to control tears

" JUST FUCK OFF SARA!" I shouted nothing meaning to yell so loud

" Please Simon what's wrong?" Wilhelm asked knocking

" PLEASE JUST GO AWAY! PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE!" I shouted again hoping they would get the message faster

" fine but I'll be back around later with lunch"

-

it was around lunch time and I knew that Sara would be back with food for me which I couldn't even stomach if I wanted it, I looked in the mirror at my bruised and scratched legs, arms, stomach and bottom.

most of these were from me trying to fight and when he got a stronger grip on me, the more I fought the more he got stronger and rougher like he wanted me to fight. Like he got enjoyment from it , which I know he did.

" Simon open and get your food" Sara said but I wouldn't move

" Simon seriously what's wrong?" she asked me still no answer

" I'm worried Simon what happened? please you can tell me"

" I ca-can't" I croaked out on the verge of a breakdown

" yes you can, you can tell me anything remember" She said In a loving voice

" come on Simon I'm starting to freak out and so is Wilhelm, just open up" she said and I sighed unable to move

" not today" I said and she sighed

" this isn't like you Simon, and whatever or whoever caused this is going to be killed by me because this is freaking me the fuck out, you didn't even act like this when the video was released onto the internet" she said and I could tell she was crying or was upset

" please leave"