Ambrose Asylum (COMPLETED)

KABANATA 34

Move on?

Despite of all that has occurred to me in the past, all of the trauma, pain, and fear. They think I'd still be able to move on?

No. Hindi 'yun ganoong kadali. Knowing that I have a small memento from that location and that he is currently six years old, it's not as simple as they think.

Hating gabi na. Maagang natulog ang anak ko dahil masyado siyang excited para sa field trip nila bukas.

And here I am. Searching for Stellvester Ajero on Google. For the past seven years, I've been curious about what happened to him, but I've been unable to locate any publications on the subject, even articles about him. Knowing that he's a part of the Ambrose Asylum history.

I tried searching Ambrose Asylum's head authorities. Pero sina George Ambrose at Kallan Blinman lang ang lumalabas. Wala talagang kahit isang bahid man lang ng pangalan ni Stell!

Why is that?

I groaned in frustration. What happened? I badly wanted to know what's been going on with Stell for the past seven years, ever since we got out of the asylum.

Marami akong mga katanungan na hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin masagot-sagot. Paano at bakit si Stell ang nagmamay ari ngayon ng Hotel des Villas? Is that hotel given to him or he purchased it? How did he get all the money for that? And why isn't he in prison right now? Did he got out? Or did he bailed?

Nagbuntong hininga ako. I don't think na papatulugin pa ako nitong mga katanungan ko sa isip ko. So I decided to take a little stroll outside. I wore a white hoodie so that no one would notice me just in case I bumped in with someone I know.

I went to the 7-eleven to order a hot chocolate drink. Umupo ako sa labas at tumingin sa kalangitan. I looked at the stars.

The stars are decorating the night sky.

Everytime I see the stars, I always smile. Because it is a reflection of my given name. Yvaine. I feel like the stars and I are connected. Even though it always shines in the dark, it offers people a lovely and charmed sense. It's as though even in your darkest moments, there's still hope. Panahon ma'y nagdidilim. Liwanag ay sisikat din.

Pinagmasdan ko ang pinaka-nagniningning na bituin, saka ako ngumiti.

Humigop ako ng chocolate drink ko saka bumulong.

"Hi Yvette, I know it's you..." Anang ko habang nakatingin pa rin sa bituin na iyon "I appreciate your taking the time to look at me tonight. I really need someone to talk to." Pagtulo ng mga luha ko.

I know I look like a lunatic right now for crying alone here in the middle of the night, but that doesn't bother me. All I worry about right now is missing my sister.

Suminghot ako "Miss na kita, Yvette. Miss na miss na miss na kita. Walang araw na hindi kita naiisip. Alam mo ba, nakita ko si Stell kahapon. I mean, akalain mo 'yon. In an unexpected place and unexpected time ay pinagtagpo ulit ang mga landas namin. Only I saw him with another woman. Yes, oo na. Ako na ang marupok. After all these years ay umaasa pa rin ako na ako pa rin ang babaeng minamahal niya. 'Yung babaeng sinabihan niya na pakakasalan niya seven years ago..." I said.

Natawa ako ng mapakla "Perhaps I've been reading too many romance novels. And it is for this reason that I wish for two lovers to remain in love with each other, no matter how many years pass. And that no matter what they've been through, they'll always be together." Natigil ako nang maalala ang sinabi sa akin ni Mama "I guess Mama's right. I think it's time for me to move on. What do you think?" Pagtingin ko sa bituin.

Ngumisi ako nang kumislap ito at mas lalong nagningning. I slowly nodded.

"Alright then, I think it's already time for me to move on." I said. Saka na ako tumayo at planong babalik na sana sa condo ni Mama nang may tumawag sa pangalan ko.