The Best Untold Story (DewBest)

Begin Again

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I was sprinting towards the cafeteria of my faculty as my friends have been messaging me nonstop to come meet them there as soon as possible. By friends I mean my band mates Tar and Dave.

I just finished playing football with Bright as the both of us became varsities since last year after undergoing some ruthless try outs from the seniors. As expected from the College of Architecture that harbored the trophy for 3 years in a row, we won again this year.

There's only a few more days left before the Christmas break and my band is now in full preparation for the Christmas concert that will be held the day before the break.

To tell you what's left off after we graduated high school, Dave, Tar, Bright, Ray and me had basically ended up studying college under the same University here in BKK. Only 'that' person went somewhere else to study college far from the rest of us. Far from me.

After crying my heart out that night I have seen Dew's story on IG, I gathered some courage to give him a call right after. He never answered. I sent him messages in Line and even replied to his story, but it seems like our story just ended that instant after he had expressed his feelings for me through that story he posted where he wrote at the bottom part of a page from my diary the exact words I have written in his uniform.

It was only that time I had realized he had kept that diary with him all this time. So naturally, he had known about that little crush I had for him but still decided to keep being friends with me.

I'm just glad he didn't get disgusted with another man liking him. He had treated me so well after that and who knows when he had started feeling something more than friendship. Was it during that time he went to me and asked if he could try my walkman? Or was it during the battle of the bands where I finally sang the song I have written for him? Did he like my song that much? Did it help him to fall in love with me?

I wonder how he felt during that last day in high school. Did he also thought confessing his feelings for me by writing it in my uniform? Did he also struggled like I did? I doubt he'd cry. Crying is only for wimps like me. Dew is so much cooler. I bet he had moved on already and gotten himself a gorgeous girlfriend in Chiang Mai.

As for me, I can only relieve that memory from two years ago every once in awhile. I admit I still miss him. He's my first love after all. I can't just forget him that easily. But then I needed to move on too. The thing between Dew and me had long been decided by the heavens. We couldn't get at least a chance to remain in contact with each other. Dew cut all ties with me. He may still be in contact with Tar and Dave but not once did he try to call or message me. I guess he had decided to finally forget that infatuation he had. I'm only a part of his past and I should remain as one for the sake of each other's peace of mind.

So seeing him sitting beside Tar and Dave in the cafeteria was a bit of a shock for me. I almost stumbled over some chairs on my way as I feel myself shaking. The man I had a crush with in high school was laughing heartily beside his old friends.

Suddenly my knees became so soft as if they were made of jellys. It's the same exact feeling I had when I have to be near him during our high school days.

Why is Dew here in our university? Is he supposed to be studying in Chiang Mai? Why did he show up all of a sudden and stir this sleeping emotion of mine? Ugh. What do I say to him? Should I start running away? Where could Bright and Ray be when I needed them the most?

Aaaaahhh... What do I do? What do I do?

"Ai Best! What are you standing there for? Come here, quick!" Dave saw me and of course made a yell out of it. He's always like this. Playful and loud. But how I wish I could put him under some silencing spell just for once. Why does he have to yell? Ugh.