I look at the lock. I see the clock flashing 10:56 I get up out of bed and look at my self in the mirror. Thoughts cross my mind over and over your ugly, your fat your. My dad walks in tells me to come on we need to drop your sister off. I hope in the car still waking up, we drop off my sister and my dad takes me home and drops me off and heads to work, I check my messages my mom texted me I ignore, 12:00 I'm watching tv on the couch I try my best to ignore my feelings my mom is in re-hab she left us 6 months ago... off with some boy...... I start to feel lost. I start heading to the kitchen has I'm making my self a sandwich I look over at the knifes I snap back to real life when I hear a knock at the door. I open it it's my friend he comes inside and asks to play, I tell if my dad's not home you can he leaves then I get a text that say hey whore-Avi when will she leave me alone only if mom really cared she would be here to defined me... and people just hating me. I grab my phone and block her. I check the time it's 21:01 I get up and feel weakness like no don't get up what's the point just no one needs you to, your right I tell myself I sit down on the couch almost crying then I think about how it's always my friends getting love but when I cry I'm a cry baby or they just don't know how to man up at say something just sits there not knowing what to do I cry feeling more sadness on me
