𝐃𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐌𝐄 • 𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐊 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐀𝐍

Sixteen

"Flashbacks"

Warnings: Abuse, Death, Drug Use, Self Harm Dynamics, Groping, Sexual Assault

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"Mama, please don't leave me." Y/n looks back to the woman pushing her on the swing set. "I just don't want you to leave me again."

Y/M/N says nothing. Shes seen everything. The way Y/F/N blamed Y/n for her death, the way he would throw her to the wall, slap her, and just the way her daughter took everything. She watched the way her eyes went small every time the drugs kicked in and she watched the pain run through her every time Y/M/N was brought up.

But even then, she knows her daughter is strong. She knows her daughter isn't like her, the one that slept around and left her Star.

Y/F/N is right, Y/M/N is a lot of things.

Y/F/N is right, Y/M/N ruined Y/n.

But Y/n is strong.

"Stay with me baby." Y/M/N's soft tone doesn't match the fear that rings through her own lifeless body. "Stay with me and it will just be with us forever."

Derek and Aaron corner Y/F/N in a wall and take matters in their own hands.

"Where is she?" The angry Derek says.

"You were asked a question," Aaron grips the older mans arm. "Where is Y/n?"

The others distract the station while the two listen Y/F/N, taking notes.

James orders Megan to get the small bottle and needle that lays on top of the cabinet.

"She's not going to be able to daydream for long now." He fills the needle with the liquid before surprisingly finding a vein and sticking the point in it.

The familiar feeling of pleasure quickly runs through Y/n before her mother is no longer before her and she is no longer on the swing set.

It's black again.

Her eyes are open again.

She hears James again.

She feels the needle pierce her skin again.

"Y/F/N admitted that James was once obsessed with Y/n, to a point he had to kick him out of his house multiple times." Aaron walks into the room with Derek.

"Was he shocked?" David asks, watching as Derek whispers to Penelope.

" Ultimately yes, he even gave us some pin points, starting with an old safe house Y/n used to.." Aaron pauses, taking a breath before watching Penelope's finger go across her keyboard. "An old safe house were Y/n used to get high. It's about 3 hours away and she used to take the train."

"The dealers park." A voice from the door says. "That fucker took my baby girl to dealers park and I want to make him pay." Y/F/N says.

"I got an address!" Penelope turns around and soon after, Aaron, David, Emily, Jennifer, and Spencer, along with Y/F/N and his officers speed down the streets.

"They are going to find her." Penelope rubs Derek's shoulder. "They are going to find her and bring her back to you."

For the first time since Y/n was taken, Derek has let himself cry.

Y/n's missed this feeling. She's missed the 2 seconds and after pain in her arm and she's missed the way her world has color.

She wants more.

She needs more.

But James is done with her. He's done with feeling useless and only being a pawn. He's so angry that as Megan try's to calm him down, he takes out the pocket knife he stored and lets out all his anger. The sound of flesh being cut echos and echos, but the blackness stays.

James is bloody and Megan is dead. James walks up to Y/n's already bloody body and puts his arm around her back and presses his face to hers so hard, her screams from pain and refusal is muffled but his lips.

His hands make her way down to her ass and pull, missing the feeling of her skin against his.

Y/n can't scream.

And even if she did, no one would hear her.

She's in pain. Her skin is cut and she's more dirty from James hands on her.

Stop. She wants to tell him.

Mommy. She want to be held.

Stop. She knows he would listen.

Mommy. She wants to be with her again.

The team assembles outside and prepares for the raid, SWAT taking lead.

Door after door they knock down, but so caught up in his own world, James doesn't care.

These almost 17 hours he has had of Y/n have been the best and when the door is finally kicked down, he meets the eyes of Y/F/N first.

Everyone looks at the tied up Y/n. Bloody, almost completely naked, the drugs next to her feet with the half empty syringe.

She looks up to noise but she can't see anything.

She feels the blade being pressed to her boob, knowing just a little to the left and the knife would be at her pounding heart.

She hears James admit his love.

She hears her dad and Aaron scream.

She feels the blade in her chest.

She hears the gunshots and feels the blood run down past her feet.

It goes black.

Mommy.

She wants her.

Mommy.

She takes her hand.

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