Assistant to Chris Evans 💙

Chapter 12

A week later I get a FaceTime call from Sebastian on my computer right before I'm about to go to bed.

"Sebastian, hi." God I missed his smile.

'We should talk. I assume since I haven't heard from you that you've made your choice.'

"Seb, no. I just decided not to be with anyone."

He laughs, but I can see the pain. 'Really? Two men and you decide you don't want either?'

"It's not really that. I don't want to hurt either of you. And I- I just don't know what to do. I'm sorry I hurt you Sebastian."

'Look we were friends long before this, and we still can be. I really only want you to be happy. No matter who that is with. There was another reason I called. I haven't heard from you, so I've sort of started seeing somebody.' He looks away from me.

My heart sinks to my stomach. "Sebastian, I think that's great. I hope you know I only want you to be happy as well."

'Goodbye Sam.' He hangs up.

I lay back down and can't control the tears that fall. I don't know what is wrong with me. He is right, I couldn't decide? Why not? I don't have to choose now. But if I date Chris, then Sebastian will think I was just waiting for him to bow out. I can't win either way. Can I? I can't sleep. I go to Chris's door and knock as I open the door, "Chris?" Dodger's head perks up and I see that Chris is asleep. I decide to crawl into bed with him.

He half wakes up, "Sam?"

"Can I sleep here Chris?" He wraps his arms around me as I cry.

"Of course you can, are you okay?"

"Sebastian has started dating someone." He just holds me and we fall asleep.

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I wake up and roll over to see Chris looking at me. "I'm sorry I came in here last night."

He touches my face. "I'm not. This is what I want to wake up to everyday." He reaches over and kisses me. "You can't just expect me to wait around forever. I do have other offers you know."

"Other offers?" I feel something in the pit of my stomach.

"Never mind. I have to fly to London today for some meetings for work. When I get back we need to have a real discussion about us and what we are doing here. And please, open my present while I'm gone." He stands up and starts to get dressed. "I really am sorry that you got hurt. You and Sebastian. I take some blame for that. I should have told you how I felt a long time ago."

I watch him pack his bag. "No, I could've said something too. And I shouldn't have gotten into a semi relationship with him knowing full well that I was confused and still had feelings for you."

He sits on the bed next to me, "why didn't you ever tell me you had feelings for me?" I feel him reach forward to caress my face with his hand.

"I don't know. You can have anyone you want." I look away from him, "and you have. I didn't think I was good enough."

Chris shakes his head, now angry. "Not good enough? Don't you think there was a reason it never worked out with any of them?" I look away from him but he grabs my face, "none of them were you." He gets back up and packs his bag to leave.