Random things I write!

The Main Character(🌧️Vent🌧️)

(⚠️Trigger warnings!⚠️)
Talking about not liking oneselves body
Talking about taking medication for mental health reasons
Mention of alcohol

To me, the world is a book
I see through words on the page
I read the pages
I used to think I was just the reader, only in first person

I was wrong
I was supposed to be the main character
This was my story
Then why do I feel so out of place?

I'll never look like the main character
With her blonde hair, blue eyes and flawless body
I'll never look like her, I'm just a side character wishing I was her
With my strawberry hair, hazel eyes and imperfect body
I wish I was her

I'll never be like her
Getting grades as straight as her sexuality
I'll never be like her
Getting grades so different they look as twisted as the twizlers candy

I'll never think like her
She never worries about the future, she's never taken a pill to help with her mental health in her life
I'll never think like her
I'll constantly worry about everything that goes wrong and I take medication for my mental health

I'll never grow up like her
With her perfect childhood and loving parents
I'll never grow up like her
With my messed up childhood, an alcoholic stepfather and a mother who gets yelled at almost every time my stepfather drinks

I'll never be as social as her
With her large friend group and always consistently being checked on
I'll never be as social as her
With my two friends whom I barely talk to or hang out with because I'm too anxious to even message "Hello"

I'll never be her,
The main character
I'll always be a side character
Wishing to be her.