Smut Journal II | jungkook | jjk fanfic

hello :)

dear my
lovely readers🤍

It's been a while hasn't it?

how are you guys?

now don't get too excited this is only the first step in me returning, I just thought that yet another update was in order

well where to start...

as I mentioned I had a falling out with a lot of people I was close with, after leaving and reflecting I had never felt more alone in my life

I even reached out to them but none of them wanted to speak to me at that time

I honestly felt so hopeless I contemplated hurting myself in a way that I would go to sleep and never wake up

I wished for that everyday, everyday I wished that I could sleep and never wake up again

I hate that I ever thought that.

thankfully someone stayed by my side

no matter how hard I tried to push him away he stayed by my side which was ironic because me and this guy used to hate eachother

I asked him why and all he said was 'because you have no one else, I'm staying whether you like it or not. we'll fix it'

I had a complicated history with him but he was the only person that brought me out of probably the darkest place I've ever been in my life

and now we're together and I haven't felt that sad, dark feeling at all not once

I'm happy guys I really am!

the story between him and I could honestly be a book but I'll save that for another time.

if you have every felt that darkness I want you to know even if you feel alone there will always be somebody there and you may not even realise it

don't push them away, don't feel like you'll burden them, let yourself get better. allow yourself to get help

I remember reading a quote somewhere

'you were given this life because you were strong enough to live it'

please be happy and healthy everyone!

your author,

Haera 🤍