How lonely Can a human be?

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How lonely Can a human be ?
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Still Breathing

I can't do this anymore.
I'm giving up and I have no more energy to fight back.
How did I turn into a person I can't stand?
A person no one can love.
When I say I wanna die, they laugh. It's all a joke to them- I'm all a joke to them!

All I do is lay in bed waiting for my day to come; the day I'll leave this place.
Wondering if I'll be happier that way.
Wondering if everyone will be happier with me gone.

I can't even put my pain to words.
How many tears have I shed at this point?
How could I be so lonely, when I'm surrounded by so many?

Too many days have passed,
And too many words have been said.
But not a single sincere question.
Not one light of hope- Or a cheer of motivation.

Countless scars cover my body- Every single inch of my body.
A scream for help.
Heard by many.
Seen by many.
And yet , no one did anything.
They did nothing but judge me- Insane, pathetic,worthless;
All these insults they threw at me!

I mean , what is it that I even want?
What is it that I even need?
I just know that I don't belong here-
That I'm not meant to be here.

...When did I become so alone?
When did my days become so blue?
Why am I still breaking?
Why am I still breathing?

So many questions...
But not a single answer.

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A/N : Thank you so much for helping me Jay ☺️