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so i am happy and i'm sad i finally got kentrell back he in my room sleep but i'm in my momma old room

it's been 2 weeks since my momma died and honestly i can't do this anymore like i'm giving up for good

i'm so weak i have nobody who knows what kentrell got planed maybe he might leave again and that's the last thing i want

i was crying my eyes out i got a knife and start cutting my arm this make the pain go away i was finna cut some more

when i heard kentrell loud voice and i quickly hid the knife and covering my arm

dess what u doing he said walking up to me
nothin i said smiling wydn and he gave me that tell me now look

kentrell i'm fine i said smiling dess where ma at he said looking at me and i look down i start getting sad & dizzy

dess why you bleeding he said and next thing you know i fell that last thing i heard was i love you please dess

KENTRELL POV
i was seeing what dess was doing and i can tell she was doing something that felt good to her but pain to others

she hit the ground i hurry up and rush her to the hospital the last thing i wanted to do was loose dess i tried calling her mom but no answer

i got to the hospital I NEED HELP MY GFN IS DYING they hurry up and came to help me i started crying

i didn't wanna loose her man was all i kept saying before i fell asleep

4 HOURS LATER ....

family of destiny a doctor called & i hurry up yes is she okay what's wrong i said finna cry

well she fine and she's up but it seems like she has depression and been cutting herself on her arms she had a few bruises between her legs

she won't say a thing she won't speak at all she just keep saying momma and crying he said and i shook my head

can i see her alone umm yes sir room 2b on the left hall i got to her room and she was bald up crying

destiny i said and she look at me her eyes was so red it look like she smoke nonstop ma tell me everything i'm listen

she let me sit in the bed with her & she got close like she didn't want me to leave close i start smiling talk to me dess & she wipe her tears

well my momma died 2 weeks ago & im going thur depression i gotta leave baton & stay with my auntie she said with her voice cracking and more tears coming

my aunt has a bfn who like to touch on me but that's the only place i can go we weren't on good terms i can't get a job rn i have nobody but myself

i'm really hurting & nobody see it yes i smile but that's fake ass smile i've been hurt for 3 years i left my auntie house just to go back kentrell

like i need my momma i miss her smiling & telling me it's okay & i always felt better i miss her messing with me i just miss her kentrell

like everyday i ask god why her & not me or why she had to leave early i just miss her that's it she said breaking down & her heart machine go up

KENTRELL I CANT DO THIS she scream I NEED A DOCTOR i said and they rush in her room she was loosing her mind i hate seeing her down

i never knew momma had died i know that been hard for her first i bully her second i mess with her friend & third i leave her now she finna get hurt more

i gotta help her she can't leave baton she can't leave me i'll protect her i'll watch her it's my fault i started crying thinking about ma she was so pretty

remember the first time i met her the most beautiful woman you ever seen i smiled thinking about her & close my eyes i start saying things to her

hey ma me & dess miss you i know you seen my action & im changing ma but please if you hear me help dess make her strong talk to her please i love dess i can't loose her anymore and i smile

the doctor came walking up too me well dess is very emotional but she wants to go home is it find if we release her i shook my head yea

she cam from the back and she look so sleepy come on dess was all i said and she ain't say nothing she didn't even move she going thur this again

i pick her up and she laid her head down on my shoulder wiping her tears i really love her and the last thing i want her to be is hurt

DESTINY POV
i just made it home and kentrell look really worried for me and i'm worried for myself like i just miss my momma i wipe my eyes and walk inside the house

you hungry ma he said looking at me and i shook my head he said okay and i walk upstairs to my momma room i got sad all over again

she smelt so good her room was so nice and clean i was crying i ain't even see kentrell standing there

kentrell u can leave i'll call you okay i said with my voice still cracking

no dess come on your gonna be okay pray about it please dess come on he said i got up and walk to my room we got in the bed and i laid the other way

he came closer and turned me around look at me dess he said but i bald up on his chest i ain't wanna look at him dess 5....4...3...2 and i look up at him

stop crying right now he said i'm never leaving u again stop crying ma is okay u gotta stop crying tho

kentrell i can't that was my fav person im dying inside i can't do this kentrell i'm giving up he put me on top of him and he played in my hair

close yo eyes he said and i did what was told he pulled the covers over us and turned the light off he wrap his hand around my waist and i felt a lil safe now listen he said keep yo eyes close i want you to fall asleep

i love you dess and i'm sorry for treating u how i treated you the day i seen u at the mall i knew u was right like u said i hate hearing the truth and that's right but i love you and i'm not leaving

i hug him tighter when he said that and he laugh i love yo small ass and the attitude you be giving me when u mad it make me smile in the inside

me and you gone stay here just us okay and i was finna say sum when he kiss me on the lips ma close yo eyes and shhh he said i close my eyes again and he start rubbing on my booty

that made me go to sleep faster kentrell i said hmm i love you more and i'm sorry for everything i did too i'm sad and scared that u might leave me again that's why i'm clingy about u

and why i wanna be under u so bad because i don't wanna loose u i already lost my fav person i don't wanna loose another one kentrell and i mean it i said laying my head on his chest

i love you more we gone stay like this all tomorrow ma okay he said and i nodded give me a kiss bighead and i kiss him twice goodnight he said and i went to sleep