Secrets

Ch. 4 Scared

 Tsukishima's POV:

It had been around a hour before Yamaguchi and I walked home. It was Wednesday so I usually would have stayed at Yamaguchi's but he wanted to be alone for awhile. 

"Fine, fail the test tomorrow." I told him. "I'll be fine, Tsukki, you worry to much." Yamaguchi seemed to feel better. 

 Yamaguchi's POV: 

I couldn't stop thinking about what Tsukishima said. "You probably like Utako." Ugh!! Why why WHY- how is it even possible!? Utako's a guy... I'm not gay- am I?  I slumped on my bed and sighed. 

Utako's POV: 

After practice the team started to head different directions. "Probably to their families" "huh?" Kageyama said. Darn I must have said that out loud. "Oh...I uh.." I started to say. "Do you need somewhere to stay or-? Kageyama was trying to smile. It looked creepy. "I- um..." I did need a place to stay... "if you don't mind..." I said looking away and scratching my neck. 

(A few days later)

Kageyama's POV: 

Tonight would be the fifth night Utako would stay here. I figured his family was on a trip or something but he didn't have any where to stay. It didn't make sense. 

Transition to after school in Kageyama's bedroom

Utako was fidgeting something that looked like a silver locket around his neck. It looked rusty as if he never took it off. I want to ask what it was but was interrupted my some sniffles coming from the corner Utako was in. 

Utako's POV: 

I looked down at my locket. I missed them so much... I started to cry. Kageyama was being so nice to me. He could not see me cry. "Mmm!" I tried to stop but the harder I tried not to cry, I cried more and more. Until I was practically bawling. Not here! NOT HERE!  A few years ago I started to have panic attacks/anxiety attacks and they were only getting worse. I clinched my fists and tried to muffle myself but it was to late. "AHHHHHH!" I was crying hard. So hard I didn't realize Kageyama was staring at me.

Kageyama's POV: 

"Ahhhhh!" I turned around to find Utako curled up on the floor crying. His breathing was getting shorter by the second. "Don't just stand there!" His big sister scolded, "Do something!". "What, I don't even know what's going on!!" I shot back at her. "Ugh." she mumbled "gimme he-him". Was she about to say her? 

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