The Beauty in the Beast

drunk

i told him i love him

again

i told him times have been hard

without him

they haven't

i was just drunk

again

everyone tells me 

i'm so fun when i'm drunk

what they don't know

is that drunk me

is repressing 

because it's gotten bad 

again

my brain won't shut off

the thoughts are back

so i drink 

and i'm too numb to think

too numb to care 

and too numb to act 

and that sometimes

i'm more terrified of not living