Cursed. Dazai osamu X Reader

7) maybe in another life?

My soul has so deeply
Rooted itself into yours
That i fear if i were to
pull away it may be my very demise.

We placed the goats blood around our bed in a circle like the ritual implied. Then chanted the phrase six times. We walked around the bed counter-clockwise,
Before we fell asleep he said

" it's strange really.
We came into this world,
Bright eyed and happy,
But how long did it last?
At first a few grades slipped.
Then the lack of motivation soon came the constant crying.
Then the pain.
And finally numb.
Our bright eyes began to dull.
And the happiness faded.
What happened to us?"

"H-huh what's with you all of a sudden?" I said confused.

" nothing never mind Y/N goodnight dear"

Then i took his hand and we both fell asleep.
When i woke up the next day i was starting at my husband and he at me but our souls had transferred into each others bodies.

He was immortal
and i was immune.

The spell had worked.
I reached into my drawer and pulled out the white flower with a sharp end,as sharp as a needle.
When he saw the flower he said
" what a beautiful way to die"
"Do it. I'm ready"he said.
I hesitated. And he saw that
" please let me die. I'm ready"
he said. I nodded. And took
A deep breath.

"Y/N if we are destined to be with each other, we will meet in another life"
I held back tears when i heard that.

I pressed it on his chest right under his heart and pierced it right through the middle of his heart. The white flower bloomed and turned red as it sucked the blood in his heart.
As the life drained from my body i caressed his forehead and watched him breathe his last
He said two words " thank you "
And he was gone. That was so long ago when i watched my own body fall into a grave.

We all end in tragedy.
With a casket and ashes.
With a funeral drowning in white roses. Destined to rot like our worthless bones.

When the next day I woke up and realized he was truly gone and I wasn't getting him back.
Why did this have to happen?

Because we were soulmates, but the universe knew how powerful we would have been together so it broke one of us.

Oh dazai,
My love for you was like an ocean you could drown in; it's quite a shame you knew how to swim so well.

When i explained to my kid that the curse was upon me they will be on their death bed and i will only watch in horror as they slip away.

Dazai was right about this curse.
And it's one i carry now.
One that holds a further curse upon me.
For the spell said one thing that i never told dazai, that i could never go back to the way it had been or transfer again.

But now that I've seen through his eyes what the hell is like perhaps it is time that i start to explore this world and discover exactly what it means to die, and maybe along the way, i can learn to live.
But dazai finally got what he wanted. Death. I hope he's happy now.

He was my only escape from reality,
he taught me how to live, and then he left.

The end.