Ash's notebook

💔upsetting times...🏳‍🌈

Sometimes I remember a bad memory and it makes me upset, other times I thought of myself as a mistake that my parents made and I would never succeed in the future and they someday would die and I wouldn't have helped them, all of that makes me upset and not ready to live alone but I know I would stay contact with my family.

It always feels like I would be just a shame for our family for me being pansexual and candygender, I know I should be proud of who I am but when my mom said if I wasn't heterosexual I would die I was thinking about it into now.

I am watching wholesome memes to calm down and it helps a lot, I am still trying to remember I shouldn't be ashamed of who I am even if my mom isn't ok with it.