THIRTY (completed)

Part Vl

Chapter 6

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Abby*

MABILIS kung tinakpan ang bibig ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit iyon ang lumabas sa bibig ko.Dahil ayaw kung kaawaan ako ni Lucas. I didn't want him to feel responsible for me so I chose to say those things.But I was now regretting my choice of words. Lucas might take it the wrong way and I couldn't blame him.Baka akalain niya na nag iilusyon ako na may gusto pa ri ito sa akin.

Tila naman na-amuse isya sa sinabi ko, '' Are you serious' or is it a joke?'' Lucas

Tumawa na lang ako, '' Joke lang yon. Siyempre alam ko naman na hindi na mangyayari yon.di ba?

I knew I sounded as if I was hinting that he should confess his feelings for me but he seemed unperturbed by my statement.

''Hindi kaya ako ang dapat mag alala na baka ma-inlove ka uli sa akin?'' na pabirong sabi niya na nakatitig sa akin na parang naghahamon.

'' Huwag kang mag alala dahil wala pa akong ex na binalikan ko,Kaya you're safe with me,'' nakangiting sabi ko sa kanya.Totoo iyon.Once I ended a relationship,hindi ko na yon lilingunin. I moved on easily and I didn't dwell on the past kahit gaano ko pa kamahal ang lalaki.

''Well,ganoon din naman ako.Once I end something,I make a clean break kaya hindi na mangyayari na magkakagusto pa ako sa iyo.''

That was the answer that I'm expecting but somehow I felt disheartened with his comment,Pero hindi ko yun ipinahalata at hindi na lang ako sumagot.

''If thats the case,wala tayong magiging problema. We both have no intention to fall in love with each other again, so there will be no worries,right?'' Lucas

''Are you daring me to take you up on your offer?''

''Think whatever you like. I just need an admin assistant and you need a new job,so why don't help each other out?''

He might have a point there but I had doubts. I had to think really hard about it. Maybe working with him would be my last option. Sana ay hindi na umabot sa punto na kailangan kong magtrabaho sa kanya.

''I'll think about it, Lucas,'' pero sa totoo lang wala akong intensyong tanggapin yong alok niya.

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Lucas insisted to drive me home.Pero tinangihan ko.Para sa akin,wala nang dahilan para magkasama pa din kami.We're couldn't be lovers again and I didnt want to be his friend. It was for the best if we didnt spend time with each other. Hindi naman na siya napumilit pa. We shook hands and went our separate ways.Iyon na siguro ang huling pagkakataon na magkikita kami.Kahit ano ang mangyari ay hindi ako hihingi ng tulong sa kanya.

Agad kung tinawagan si Roxy pagdating ko sa bahay. Kailangan kong marinig ang paliwanag niya kung bakit nito sinabi kay Lucas ang problema ko sa trabaho.

"O, Abby,bakit ka napatawag? May problema ba?" tanong nito nang sagutin ang tawag ko sa kanya.

"Roxy, bakit mo sinabi kay Lucas na I need new job?"

"Sorry, Abby.I was really worried about you, kaya I had no chioce but to tell him.Why anong sabi niya sa iyo?"

"He offered me a job."

"Thats good. What did you say? When will you start working for him.?"excited na tanong niya

"I declined his offer."

"Whatt?! Why?!

"I just don't see myself working for him. Truth is uncomfortable around him."

"Baka naman you still have feeling for him. Magtapat ka nga sa akin,may puwang pa ba si Lucas sa puso mo?"

"Ano ba yang itanong mo? Alam mo naman kapag tapos na ang relasyon sa akin ay never ko nang banabalikan."

"Hindi ko naman tinatanong kung babalikan mo pa si Lucas. Ang gusto ko lang malaman ay kung ano nararamdaman mo kanina when you saw him again after nine years. Be honest,friend.God is watching."

Mabuti na lang at hindi ko ito kaharap kaya madali akong makapagsinungaling. "Wala akong naramdaman. It was just like seeing an old.friend,yon lang."

"Liar! Abigail, tayong dalawa ba naman,eh magbobolahan pa? Halata naman na hindi mo masyadong pinaghandaan ang reunion natin. Bago lang naman ang outfit at sapatos mo at siyempre nagpasalon ka rin. Wala lang,ordinaryo lang,nothing special." pang aasar ni Roxy sa akin.

"Loka ka talaga Roxy. Sino namang babae ang gustong humarap sa ex niya na mukhang lusyang?Ang gusto.ko,kahit man lang sa packing ay ma impress parin siya sa akin. Kahit walang laman ang bulsa ko at nanganganib na ang trabaho ko,kailangan ang projection ko is a woman in control of her life at hindi isang helpless female na hinihintay na saklohan ng kanyang knight in shinning armor?"

"Ah,okay. Now I get it. So, kahit kailangan mo nagtrabaho ay tatanggihan mo si Lucas dahil sa pride mo at hindi dahil mahal mo rin siya,am I right?" sarkastikong tanong niya

"Yup,So don't push it'Roxy. Dahil never nang magkrukrus muli ang aming landas.''

''Abby,listen to me and listen good. Akala ko ba, you wany a boyfriend and new career before you hit THIRTY? Malay mo, si Lucas na pala ang sagot ng mga pangarap mo sa buhay. You'll have new job and you might rekindle your relationship with him. C'mon give it a chance at baka later on'pagsisihan mo ito.''

"Roxy,please lang, dont try to convince me again.Hindi ako interesado sa trabahong inaalok niya at lalong hindi ako interesadong makipagbalikan sa kanya and thats final answer!''

"Whatever!Lets just wait and see dahil malamang na kainin mo yang statement mo in the future.''

''Never! No way! Kaya huwag mo nang ipilit!!!''

The only thing left to do was to convince myself that I believed in my own statement.

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Let's see what will happen NEXT UD....:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SA MY BIRTHDAY THIS MONTH__ 01-24-13__ (©_©)??????...moshi-moshi!!!!!!

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