The Sweet Taste of Rosé

Chapter Three

LUNA 

Tell me why you just left me?, was I not good enough for you? It was the tears rolling down my face that got to me. I was angry I was annoyed, I couldn't hold my feelings anymore. I tried to speak but I felt my throat being blocked I could not utter a word it felt so painful. I looked deep into his eyes he turned scary like a beast waiting for its prey to make a move. It disgusted me not being able to speak I tried everything to speak but still no sound no words were being omitted I witnessed him coming close to me my body froze on the spot I was in. I wanted to scream but instead tears, tears of hurt, tears of pain I wanted to leave the room just to run so far away. It was when he told me those words I hate hearing when it came from him. " It's me and you forever" he said as he laid his fingertips on my bare face tracing it and kissing my cheek. It was finally when I felt my throat unblocked and I screamed the words that had been lodged in my throat without hesitation " Never I would rather die". Then suddenly I heard an alarm echo in the background as a looked around the room was black he was no longer there the person I loved previously disappeared and it felt more good than painful. I wake up realizing it was a nightmare it's been recurring since the day I bumped into him. I got up and positioned myself upright and saw I was in my bed. I turned to look at my phone and it was an alarm for my schedule to meet with the publisher before going to teach my students. Rubbing my cheeks and wiping my eyes i noticed tears on my cheeks it was clear I had a pretty bad hangover my head felt heavy and mouth extremely dry shit I drank to much I had thought to myself aloud. Shifting towards the left I had climbed out of my bed and headed for the kitchen to prepare myself a cup of coffee with hot milk just to get rid of the tiredness consuming me. It hit me when did I get to bed I said to myself aloud again, I looked around I saw an empty bottle of wine sitting steady on my living room table then it came back to me I was drinking with Messiah last night. I felt embarrassed and to top it off I told him about my past relationship thinking about it made me feel like a loser, but he was the one who asked so I simply answered his question. As I poured the hot water into my cup I got a text message from him, as if he read my mind, grabbing a hold of my phone on the kitchen counter I slid the phone opened trying to read his message.

Mesiah: I hope you slept well, sorry I left abruptly had to rush somewhere and I couldn't leave you sleeping on the couch so I placed you on the bed. Hope that's okay talk later Messiah.

Upon reading that message a smile crept up my face so naturally, I couldn't help but feel warm inside, like a High school girl receiving a message from her crush. I responded back 

 Me: thank you and talk later'. 

I walked back to my bedroom holding my cup of coffee and phone and sat on my bed, I kept recalling the text he sent me it made me giddy inside I disliked but liked this feeling I felt. Turning to my bedside table I saw the time and jumped from my bed and quickly rushed to take a shower before I would miss my appointment with the publisher. What seemed like forever I was finally done and left my apartment to catch the bus to see through my day. It was a cool sunny day outside I couldn't help but enjoy the sunshine on my melanated skin as I took a quick walk to the nearest bus stop, casually waiting for my bus to my location. It didn't take the bus to much time to arrive allowing me to enter as a daily ritual I politely greeted the bus driver applying my bus tag and walk to the seat at the back near the window. I was glad honestly it wasn't as full which meant less people so I knew my personal bubble would be safe. I disliked the silence upon such I decided to connect my AirPods and listen to my music. Setting it to the playlist my best friends have created for me when I was going through hard times. It wasn't long till Lee had called me, I answered her calling greeting her asking how is she doing, she asked me the same thing. Honestly the phone call was just a casual hi and what are you doing which was normal for the both of us. " are you free tonight ?" She asked me casual I replied and told her yes I am but only after seven-thirty due to my teaching schedule ending slightly late. " Can we go out for dinner I'm free today also I'm bored" she told me with a slight frustrated energy, I couldn't pass up my best friend even if I was working extremely late or I was extremely tired. I unconsciously chuckled and told her yes I would be there and that we would meet at our usual spot. It wasn't long till her voice sounded excited.  I hang up our call telling her that I would be there by eight-fifteen pm. I had put my phone on my lap and stared outside the bus's window and started re-calling last night. It bothered me how I was so vulnerable around Messiah, I hate being vulnerable I was taught growing up that expressing your feelings or showing vulnerability was wrong it was a sign of weakness and it would be used against you. But with him it was completely different I felt completely safe with him, it terrified me because the last person who saw my vulnerability used that against me and showed me nothing but absolute pain. I sighed thinking about it any longer would ruin my mood and I cannot allow it. The bus stopped at my destination I quickly hopped off and walked towards the white 5 story tall glass window building. The office was on the third floor which need me to walk up at least 3 flights of stairs. I was out of breath it's been a while since I came here but I finally arrive. I met my publisher outside he was a very kind person leading me into his office. " How have you been Author Luna " he had said with a big smile on his face. I looked at him dumbfounded he still continued to smile at me " Wait does this mean?" I asked him while continuously look at him confused he nodded his head he had given me paper work stating that the book I've been working on for years will finally be published. " Are you serious" I felt happiness take over me I looked at him then the paperworks he nodded again and told me yes. " The editing and publishing board loved it and decided to publish it", words couldn't describe what I was feeling at that moment I was over the moon. I got up from my seat and started jumping around like a young child I couldn't help myself. As Mr Choi observed my behavior he couldn't help but laugh at me. I had to bow six times at him before I could utter the words thank you. In Korea bowing was a sign of respect also being grateful depending on the contents of the matter also he was older than me so it was only right. Gratitude was one of the feelings I felt he had begged me before to seat down before he can explain anything further. " the board liked it and decided to publish it but they want to do it in Korean first and see if it will boom in the market thereafter it will be published in English as well" he had stated will reading the paperwork I nodded my head and blindly answering though being aware that it was going to happen that way it didn't bother me much. " So continue writing young lady because your book is very inspiring I am glad I got to find it" Mr Choi had stated with a big smile on his face. I couldn't believe this very moment was happening to me with that being said I had read of the contract and signed it. It was my big break I was going to became a published author, although it took years but it was all worth it. It wasn't long before I had to leave to teach my students, I gave Mr Choi one last look and politely bowed at him and left for my next destination. I was excited, it was beyond words the feeling I felt. It didn't take me long to arrive and met my students by the gate of the school. They were pretty young, children to be precise and I enjoyed teaching them with all my heart that is when my day has a foreign Teacher had started.