When I Need You The Most

What If?

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️

Wooyoung POV

Tears escaped my eyes as I ripped my hand away from my father's death grip , running up stairs locking myself in the bathroom. I rummaged through the over head cabinet in search of the only thing that brought me peace at a time like this...a razor.

I don't know why but something about having that thin piece of metal in hand brought satisfaction, knowing It was the only thing I could control if i wanted to. I rolled up my hoddie's sleeve and as the blade was about to make contact with my skin my phone vibrated in my jacket pocket, however I ignored it to feel another vibration stopping me in my tracks once more. I looked at my phone in annoyance until I realized who had messaged ...San...my best friend the only one who could make me smile when I'm at my worse, the only one who never judged me . Although he didn't know of my state I feel like he would sense when I'm having a bad days. For that I am greatful but my affection for him goes way beyond a regular friendship....I'm in love with him.

Would I ever tell him?
What if he rejects me?
What if he abandons me?
What if ...
What if..
What if.

"Do you really think he'll go for such a depressed good for nothing bitch like you, stop dreaming and face it , San is too good for you and you know it ," the voice in my head said, and I couldn't help but agree.

Resuming my earlier actions, the blade finally made contact with my skin , making deep cuts . A sigh of relief left my mouth as all my stresses has left me in that moment. Warm blood gushing from my forearm staining the white marble tiled floor...but who cares rich not me ...not at this moment.

(San's message)

Sannie❤

Woo
remember you are loved❤

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This is my first book if there are any errors , if there are any errors please don't point it out (I'll cry🙂)
The chapters are short
I'm sorry hope you enjoy it💜