black, grey, and nothing in between

lonely

i am not alone.

very far from it ,actually.

i have a good family, 

nice friends,

and plently of care from them.

there are a lot of people surrounding me yet i always feel lonely. 

so let me ask, what really is the use of having people around me if i still feel alone in this world?

i guess i don't know. 

i never know

i don't want people to be around me. 

i don't enjoy the presence or company of people. 

so what i want isn't to not be alone,

but to not feel lonely.