𝐒𝐄𝐗 𝐄𝐃𝐔𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒

Im not that girl || Otis

This is inspired by the song "Im not that girl" from Wicked the Musical.

I dont know how stupid I could have been to let myself fall in love with someone like him. So well put together, so kind, so handsome, so caring. Not like me. And how much stupider I was to think that someone like him could actually want someone like me. 

Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl

I dont deserve him. He is my best friend. But then I remember...Ruby. 

They belong together. First him and Ola, then Maeve and now...her. 

Every so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back inBlithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with a gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And Heaven knows
I'm not that girl

I miss being there for him and with him about everything. I used to tell him absolutely everything on my mind and he always knew what to say. 

I just wish that i... no. Stop, wont wish and dont start, wishing only wounds the heart.

I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know

I see ruby and Otis walking hand in hand pass the classroom window. 

...
He loves her so

I'm not that girl