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Chapter 33

Meredith needed time to think, or maybe not so much to think but to digest. She'd made up her mind, or rather she settled it. She'd only really ever thought of one option, but fear got in the way and made her doubt it. She went to her quiet place where her and Derek had spent a lot of time together, the only place at work they could go and not be seen.

She stared through the newly constructed windows out at the dark lit up city. She felt tears running down her chapped cheeks as she began to let it sink in and accept the her fate, and the fate of her unborn baby who was just getting started. She stared in disbelief as she remembered just two days ago all she had to worry about was getting up on time in the morning.

She heard the plastic rustle and knew that she was no longer alone in the room, and since only one person would know about this place, one person would come here, only one person would know where to find her. She didn't bother wiping her eyes as she turned around to face his anxious and broken face.

"We're having a baby." she whimpered. He looked at her incredulously, as if he wanted to hear it again to believe it "I never wanted to get rid of it, was scared and doubtful, but I never wanted to get rid of it. I just wanted the choice to do what I felt I needed to do."

"You'll always have the choice Meredith." he said softly "I just wanted you to know that I'm all in this."

"We can't tell anyone."

"People are going to find out soon enough Meredith."

"Yes." she nodded "They'll know I'm pregnant when I start to show." she gulped "But they don't have to know who got me pregnant."

"Meredith I can't let you go through this alone."

"I know." she sniffled "I know you'll be there, and you can cheer me on silently. But she can't know about us, not yet."

"So we're still going to be the same, just sneaky and having a baby?"

"Yes Derek." she gulped "We're going to have a baby...." she sniffled and whimpered as she choked on her own voice "We're going to have a baby!"

"Oh god." he breathed and reached her in two strides "Thank you." he breathed out and kissed the top of her head as he held her close "Thank you Meredith."

"Just don't hurt me ok?" she squeaked through her tears.

"It'll be ok." he said, rubbing his hands up and down her back "It'll all be ok, I'll make it right."

"Derek?" she sniffled.

"Yes?"

"Does the seventh floor have a bathroom?"

"I don't know?" he frowned "Why?"

He suddenly heard her gag and gasped just as she emptied her stomach contents all down the front of his scrubs. She looked at him horrified after she was done choking, he just smiled.

"I guess I deserved that."

"Little bit, yeah." she mumbled.

"I supposed we both need to find a bathroom then."

"Yeah, might be good." she nodded.

They both walked towards the stairs, glancing at each other with much lighter shoulders than they had before, and knowing that from that point on...their lives would never be the same again.

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