he broke me first

-Chapter 1-

Amaya's perspective-

I felt an urge to cry myself an ocean. I couldn't make up whether I was missing him or just getting emotional by thinking about the so-called good days, which I thought were good with him. I was just a fool to believe that he loved me.

My friends said he was right for me but it turned out that no one meant that, they wanted me to know how it felt to be used they were aware that Noah didn't like me when I asked them why they did this to me their only answer was I took their fame in high school they weren't aware that because of them I'm in a severe depression no one knows about it except my only friend Alexandra. She wasn't a part of it she told me he wasn't right for me from the start but I was blindly in love with Noah. I thought she was jealous of me we both had a huge fight but now I get it that she was right she always wished the good for me but what I did to her wasn't good but still she always there for me.

I would lie if say that I don't miss him, I miss him to death but when I think about him all the things he did to me comes to my mind and I can't take that pain. I seriously miss knowing your there but I never want to see you again in my life. Then I realized that I was sitting at the bottom of the shower thinking about you and crying uncontrollably, I forgot how to smile my friend left the hope and started thinking I would never smile again like I used to do before.

I was the sunshine of the group, my days weren't like this I never knew how to cry but now it is different. People could tell it is me by the happy vibes they used to get, and now they don't bother about me.

I am a mess! My life is a big fat joke when I tell my friend how I think she tries to encourage me she takes me to hang out with her and at last, she left hope on me. It's funny right

I always ask my friend that why do I others think that only weak people cry it's not like people who cry are not weak it's because they have been strong for too long!

I seriously don't miss the Noah I know I miss the old Noah. I was in my deep conversation and I suddenly felt that the shower is off when I open my eyes I see the one who I never wanted to see it was none other than My so-called best friend who pretended to be my friend but was backstabbing me with her chicks.

"Why are you crying ?" Scarlet said

"ask yourself why I am crying," I said in a calm tone I wasn't in a mood to fight

"ok I am sorry about that," She said

"Sorry doesn't mean anything to me it's just a trash word," I said

"Woah Woah! calm the fuck down you have changed a lot" she said

"I didn't change the situation made me like this," I said

"Why are you being like this I can't see you sad I want that Bright Cheerful Amaya back I don't want to see this crying sad Amaya," She said

I was gonna say something but I was interrupted by a knock Scarlet said she will check on it I insisted first but while getting up I realized I didn't have the energy to walk my legs were sore.

Scarlet came back and Alexandra was behind her she ran towards me seeing my condition and hugged me tightly I was overwhelmed by her actions. She asked me why I was sitting there.

"Please don't ask me why I am sitting here when you already know the reason and what is Scarlet doing here," I asked while crying

"she is innocent she was forced to act like this with you," Alexandra said

"See I won't suffer through this alone," I said

"I can't let you be alone what if your depression takes control over you and what if you end your life," She said

Hearing this Scarlet teared up Alexandra went and comforted her

"she is in depression because of me it's my fault I shouldn't have listened to them I couldn't do anything I was being controlled but I never thought that she will end up like this I thought she only had a small crush on him I never knew she loved him this much!" Said, Scarlet

"see we cant change the past but we can create a good future for her right" Alexandra said

"future I don't see anything good coming up for me I can only see me crying here every day till my legs are sore" I said

"shush don't talk like this" Alexandra said

"why not! why shouldn't I talk like this its my life you cant control it" I said and started crying

My eyes were swollen from crying but who cares?

I wonder does true love even exist or is it only in fantasies' for me love is a shit Once there was a time when I embraced it I still laugh when I recall our memories!

Its true love does make you blind but I never thought I would be blind for 2 years...

"By the way alexa did you buy my beer" I said

"uhhh! yes its in the car I'll get it" She said

"what the fuck when did you started drinking," Scarlet said

"why shouldn't I drink It makes me happy" I said

To Be Continued-

Authors Note-

Gosh, I seriously don't know why the hell I am crying I feel I was fully into the character don't worry my friends aren't like that........

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