ι ℓσνє уσυ, мσηѕтєя | LK Adaptation

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Time passed and Jungkook was still sitting beside her, looking at her peaceful sleeping face. He also stopped fanning her the moment he noticed that she’s not sweating anymore.

And after staring at her for a long time, Jungkook began to heaved a long and deep sigh. He clenched the cloth in front of his chest as he raised his face to look at the ceiling.

Afterwards, he bit his lip and closed his eyes for another long while.

That moment, Jungkook was sorting out the emotions inside his chest. Pain, the feeling he thought he will never feel again, the feeling he thought was buried along with his mother’s death long time ago resurfaced once again just by seeing lisa cry.

The sight of her crying as she asked him why, was like a broken video clip that kept appearing in his head over and over again. It was a sight he didn’t want to happen ever again. He doesn’t want to see her cry like that again. He doesn’t want to see her feel like that again.

For the first time in his life, he started to understand what is the so called romantic love. He finally understood that the cause of all the emotions that kept storming within him ever since he met her were all because he loves her.

He was overwhelmed and he didn’t know how to explain what he felt that moment he realized he’s in love with her. However, all he knew was that he will never bear to lose her. All he wanted was to keep her in his arms and to make her happy.

As he thinks about her, Jungkook then opened his eyes and clenched his shirt even harder. He opened his mouth and softly uttered few words.

"So this is love, huh."

...

Jimin was already leaning on the wall in front of Jungkook and lisa’s room when the door finally opened. Jungkook stepped out but he just glanced at him without any word before he just walked hastily towards the courtyard.

Jimin on the other hand just followed him quietly. And as soon as they reached the courtyard, Jungkook finally talked.

"Jimin, let’s fight." He said and jimin could only sigh, as though he expected him to say that.

Thus, in the end, they just fought ferociously like usual under the dark sky. Until time passed and the fight ended. He was panting heavily as he leaned on the wall when jimin reached out a bottle of water and a towel towards him.

Jungkook then just took the towel and wiped his wet face and neck before he took the water.

After some moments, both of them were now seating on the ground with their backs leaning on the wall.

"So? Have you thought about it?" Jimin broke the silence but for a long while, no word came out of Jungkook’s mouth. He just raised his head and stared at the dark sky quietly before he finally opened his mouth.

"Jimin... I’m feeling pain again." He just said causing jimin to fell speechless.

That moment, jimin remember that time when Jungkook suddenly told him that he couldn’t feel a thing, not even pain. He complained that he felt like his heart was numb and completely empty. Jungkook was just twelve back then and so he is. Thus in the end, they both ignored it saying that the numbness will soon disappear. Not knowing that it will last for years to the point that he would even forget how to smile.

Reminiscing the past, jimin couldn’t help but smile as he spoke.

"Well, it’s good to hear that."

"Well, it’s good to hear that." Jimin said and Jungkook’s mouth just twitched upon hearing him.

"So? Am I finally human again?" Jungkook then asked while his gaze was still focused on the dark sky. Causing jimin to just raise his head as well.

"Well, didn’t you became human again for quite a long time now? I think since the first time you felt something towards your wife?" Jimin talked a bit hesitant but Jungkook just confirmed his words with an "Mm. You’re right." Causing jimin to fell speechless for a while as Jungkook just continued talking.

"Just now... she cried in my arms... asking me why can’t she see me." He said with such a really downhearted voice. Causing jimin to just clam his mouth.

"She’s always been giving me warmth, she is like the sun warming my cold world and giving me life... and yet, I am hurting her." He added and he run his fingers in his hair before he tugged it as he lowered down his head.

That moment, jimin was shocked. And he didn’t know how to even react. Not because of what he just said. It was because, this is the first time he saw this man to finally show his emotion through action. He used to just stay there motionless without any word like a lifeless stone no matter how perplexed he is in the inside, but now...

Whoah, is this another great effect of being in love? People in love do change quite quick, huh... I can’t believe this... Wait, am I going to witness this man walking back and forth like a real problematic human being when he gets worried to his wife soon? Seriously?

Jimin who was supposed to be sympathizing with the perplexed Jungkook was just looking at him with wonders and disbelief.

A-and what’s with that look?

Once again, jimin reflexively raised his hand to cover his mouth. It was because the stone cold man beside him now looks like a problematic little beast. No, a little puppy?

Jimin shook his head to remove the somewhat amusing things in his head. And the next words Jungkook uttered, made him instantly turned serious.

"You said that the only thing I could do not to hurt her was to reveal myself to her but... but if I show her my face, it’s the same as dragging her into the warzone just to suffer with me. If I tell her who am I, i..."

Jungkook’s voice was indescribably miserable that jimin could do nothing but remained speechless. He knew that his decision of not revealing himself to her only shows just how much she means to him.

A long silence went by and none of them talked again. Until Jungkook just stood and began to walk away. However, he just took a few steps when he stopped and looked back at Jimin who remained sitting on the ground.

"We can’t leave yet today... I have something to do first." He said, causing jimin to stood immediately, looking a bit bewildered.

"Eh? Hey, Jungkook... did you forget who is waiting for your return today?" he asked as he followed him. But the man just continued walking, as though telling him that he didn’t care no matter who it was.

"You know you can’t add another one in the long list of countries that’s hunting you." Jimin continued as he raised his voice a little bit. Causing Jungkook to halt and finally looked at him.

That moment, jimin just stood there speechless the moment he saw Jungkook’s eyes suddenly turned ferociously horrifying. Especially when a terrifying evil smile suddenly flashed across his face.

"When did I care about that? If they too, decided to go against me, then let it be." He said heartlessly, causing jimin’s eyes to widen in disbelief.

And the next second, what Jungkook said left him dumbfounded.

"Listen jimin... From today onwards, let’s begin again... Now that I found a reason to fight again, do you think anyone can stand against me?" he said with such a calm and absolute voice before he nonchalantly left.

That moment, jimin just stood there unmoving. Until suddenly, a smirk flashed across his face and he laughed. He shook his head and he put his hands on his waist.

And the next second, an unbelievably fiery spirit blazed within him, and his eyes burned wildly.

"You finally found a reason to fight again, huh..." he uttered and he laughed again. That point of time, jimin looked as though all the inner beast he’s been chaining deep within him were awakened all at once. Causing a horrifying excitement in his eyes.

"So this is your answer, huh... As expected with you, Jungkook."