What Was Once Hidden ~ Carl Grimes Fanfic

Chapter 28 ~ Losing It

Carl's Pov

I slowly turn and the sight of Alex with her eyes filled with tears fill my eyes. My eyes slowly grow toward the crying, there I see Maggie holding a baby. Right then and there do I fall, I fall to the ground in tears. My mom the one who was with me since the beginning, the one who protected me was gone. I cover my face and just cry on the floor. This wouldn't have happened if I was there damn it! I feel arms wrap around my neck, I know those arms belong to Alex. I get up and push her away viciously causing her to fall. She gets up after grunting in pain. "What the hell was that for!?"

I got closer to her where I can feel her warm breath on my skin. "If I was there this wouldn't have happened!" She opens her mouth to speak but I cut her off "Save it! Your just a bitch who cares about only yourself! If I was there! If I was with her! This baby and her would be alive!"  "Carl! Shut your mouth!"  "No dad! You shut your mouth! I've had enough!"

I grab the axe my dad dropped and left into the prison tombs.

Alex's Pov

I don't know what just happened but...it hurt. There was nothing I could do to help Lori. She died during child birth...there was nothing I could do...absolutely nothing. Why can't he see that? He's acting like he's the only one who just lost something special. Yes, Lori was his mother but she was my family too. I look at Rick who's calm...well that's what he's appearing to be but inside I know he's itching just to scream. As hurt as I am right now from Carl's rant...I understand and I still care so I speak up "Rick please go after him." He looks at me before falling to the ground in tears. Hershal is examining the baby. Beth is helping, Maggie is crying in Glenn's arms and Rick is having a mental break down, so I go after Carl.

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"Carl?" I whisper/yell not wanting to attract walkers that might still be in the tombs. No response. I am deeply worried about him. I walk deeper into the tombs, stumbling apon every walker that was taken down. "Carl?" I whisper/yell again but still no answer so I walk deeper. As I'm walking I realize fresh walker blood on the walls. I turn the corner and see Carl sitting, leaning against the wall. "Carl." I say getting near him, he looks up only for a minute then looks back down.

"Why aren't you leaving me?" he asks in a deep, dry tone, which may I say is hot. "What?" He sighs before speaking again "We get into a fight, yell, hurt each other, then you leave me, usually how it goes."

"Baby." I say sitting next to him. I grab his hand before speaking "I'm never going to leave you. This world changes you and I understand that, things you once knew are gone and you don't know what is true anymore and you don't know what to trust...but." I stop to chuckle "But I know what is true...this love...and I trust it." He smiles before looking up, that makes me smile.  "Call me crazy but I'm in love with you and it will always be that way." Carl smiles even more, but he still doesn't say anything, instead he grabs my face and smashes our lips together. I deepen the kiss and pull on his collar. He lays me down on the dirty floor. My mind is over flowing with love. His hands move from my face down to my stomach, so does his head. His soft lips kiss my trembling skin. As he reaches to take off my shirt it hits me.

"Carl..I don't think now is the time." I giggle "We got caught up in the moment." he says, I laugh which makes him laugh. He gets up and reaches for my hand and pulls me up. "I fucking love you!" He says hugging me "I love you too."

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Its been a couple days since Lori's death. The baby is a girl and Carl named her Judith, Lori's middle name was Judith so he thought it was respectful to honor her in a way. Rick is going on a crazy mind loop.

Earlier today Maggie and Glenn left on a run to get baby supplies. T-Dog is...dead..Daryl saw him, as for Carol, well we don't know. She's just missing. That's where Daryl and Carl are now, they are looking for her. So basically me and Beth are taking care of Judith.

"So what have you and Carl been up to." Beth asks. Um okay not creepy at all. "What do you mean?" She smiles creeply while placing Judith in a basket. "Have you guys you know...had sex?" That was a surprising question. "No..no not yet..We aren't that ready yet." She smerks "When do you think you will be?"  "I don't know! What is this fucking creepy question hour? Gosh Damn it Beth! Can't you just stay out of people's business." She looks puzzled "Sorry I was just wondering."   "Its non of your concern either." 

"Gosh Alex I didn't know you were such a bitch, why is Carl even with you?" She says rudely "What is that supposed to mean?"

"Nothing." She says leaving the room.

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