Cannibal Craving (Venom x Eddie Mpreg)

~Chapter 2~

Eddies PoV

It was hard getting better. I knew I was sick before, but after Anne left, it spread like a cancer. She was the last lifeline I had to keep me from going down the drain, and when she was gone, she took all the love I had to give with her. The long, difficult decent to rock bottom was surprisingly quick. One minute I had a job, a woman I loved, and a place that felt like home, then the next I'm sitting alone in an apartment barely bigger than a studio, drinking my life away and wondering why I did what I did to get here. It all happened in the blink of an eye, it was almost startling how it all can go so wrong so quickly.

Life was shit. I can't compare what I was feeling to emptiness, because although there was a gaping hole Anne left in place of my heart, it wasn't empty. You can fill emptiness with something else over time, but the abyss that sat in my chest was oozing black tar. Spilling over at the sides, consuming everything I dared to try and put into it, until I succumbed to its unforgiving embrace.

The day before I had met Venom, I asked for a reason. I remember sitting in my dumpster fire of an apartment, staring at the ceiling with bags under my eyes while my rampaging thoughts ate me alive, and praying to whoever would possibly listen. Praying for a purpose. Praying for mercy. I was at my whits end and all I wanted was to feel something other than the despair and misery that made up the tar that had been filling me up inside for so long.

The universe had never spoken to me much before, but when just mere hours later I suddenly had a literal fucking alien inhabiting my body, I took that as much a sign as any that there was still something left for me here.

After that, it was like everything changed. It didn't happen over night by any means, but one day, after months of persistent effort, I woke up and I realized that the black tar that was pumping in my veins didn't feel like poison anymore. Most days it was hard just dragging myself out of bed in the morning, but all of it seemed worth while the day I got up and made a cup of coffee and remembered what real happiness felt like, if even just for a second.

I still get sad sometimes. There was still a lingering regret over all the shitty things I did, but I think that's part of being human. We all had to live with a little baggage, but I learned to carry it well, and it keeps getting lighter every day, one step at a time.

Now it was easier, sitting here and looking at the stars, being able to feel how rewarding it is to still be alive. If you had asked me a year ago if I thought I would be doing as well as I am now, I probably would've laughed in your face. I guess if you're lucky enough, life will throw you a bone every now and again.

There were still some things that were left to be desired. A few of the basic things that people dream about, like having a family of my own. But the human mind is forever hungry, and is arguably impossible to always please. I'm happy where I am, and I'm learning to be okay with knowing that I can't always have everything I want. But a guy can dream, can't he?

"Eddie." Venoms deep voice rumbles from within, and even after so much time with them, I still want to shiver when I hear it. In the good way, of course.

"Yeah, Vee?" I answer.

"We are feeling so much desire, ever since we had that little chat with your work friend. Is there any particular reason why?"

It wasn't an uncommon occurrence for Venom to ask about my more intense emotions. I sometimes forget that along with me being able to feel their emotions, they can feel mine too. It really was a trip, sharing your body with someone else. It sure as hell made it a lot harder to hide anything from them. Not that I'd ever have to though, to be honest.

Giving my head a shake, I pry my eyes away from the stars above and shove my hands into my pockets absentmindedly. "Nothing, just thinking is all."

"Liar. We only feel this way when its something that is important," the symbiote persists. Venom wasn't one to give up quickly, I'll give them that.