His Prettiest Problem

Chapter 08

"The monsters were never under my bed.
Because the monsters were inside my head.
I fear no monsters, for no monsters I see.
Because all this time the monster has been me." - anon
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"Let's go watch some movies with our best friends" I say softly , he nods and I grab my phone and we walk to the theater

I lay on the bed couch thingy that's in the theater next to spy and Ax lays beside me and he starts scratching his nail and anxious tick I used to have

I put my hand on his nails and he starts playing with my fingers Soy comes closer to me and gives me my candy and I smile at him and he puts his hand on my thigh making me blush , I ignore it and look at the TV ,

We're watching Lilo and Stitch , obviously making me smirk and stare at the TV looking like a crazy person on Meth

⚠️TW!!: SELF-HARM AND SUICIDE ATTEMPT!!⚠️

1 week later

Ax has gotten worst because of Liana, she really isn't good for him, she always manipulates him. I honestly thought she was a good person

As of right now Ax is sleep with Jeyli , he treats her like a princess, he sees me and her as little sisters he even calls me 'lil sis' and 'mana' witch honestly I love

Jeyli comes running down looking scared "Axie won't wake up mama!!! I've been doing everything to wake him up mama he always wakes up when I call him mama!" She says witch makes sense 'cause he's a very light sleeper

Everyone was in my room 'cause we where redecorating and shit like that when she came in so we all ran to him , me being first since I was the closest to the door

I run over to him and check his pulse, I want to be a surgeon so I know a little bit of stuff , but the pulse is the basics "he has a pulse but it's slowing down so call someone here now" I say

Spy calls someone and they're here in 5 minutes we lost him for a second before him and the Im guessing nurses got to work

They revived him and brought him to a fake hospital room thingy , it was very spacious and had a lot of beds

They lay him on a bed and hook everything up "he had an overdose and he also has cuts on his arm that where obviously self inflicted so I'm guessing he was trying to commit suicide or get high" the doctor says and I nod

Everyone's looking off into space thinking and soon enough I drift off into my thoughts

How could she do this.? I mean she's his friend with benefits, not even that just a fuck buddy- a booty call honestly

They only talk when they need to fuck or when she comes over to hang out with us girls , honestly we don't like her

She does anything and everything to fight someone without or with motive , she loves fighting and although I do too, she takes it to far

3 days later

Ax finally woke up this morning no one has slept we've just been in this room waiting for him to wake up , sometimes we leave to take a shower but then we come right back here

I haven't eaten and niether has Jeyli, she really adores and loves him. She's honestly 6 in age but like 12 in maturity, she's honestly more mature and smarter than I ever was at her age

She's very wise , she has an amazing way with words, I'm so proud of her. I just wish she would eat

We all snap out our thoughts and look at the door as Liana walks in Ax glances at her and puts his focus back on making Jeyli eat

I appreciate him in all honesty, he has a big ass heart of gold even though he acts all big and bad

"This is depressing y'all. He's okay bruh y'all are ma dramatic" she says and at that I look at her with a 'bitch what' face

"What makes you think he's oh so okay if he's in this hospital bed right now.? Huh.? Please enlighten me" I say "he said he was fine" she reply's and I scoff

"He told you he was okay and you believed him.? Let me start off by saying he's not okay actually. He's tired bro. Hes tired of the pain. He's tired of getting hurt and having to act like it's all okay cuz he's 'a man', he's tired of having to act so tough, he's tired of being let down, he's tired of all the lies, he's tired of the war that goes on in his head, he's tired of this constant battle with his thoughts bro, he's tired of people always thinking he's okay, he's tired of this front he puts up, he's tired of his walls, he's tired of everything. He's tired bro. He's so so tired." I say with my voice shaky and cracking at the end

"You don't know that" she says scoffing "I don't.?" "No" she reply's

"Who was the one who stayed up all night while he laid on her lap.? who was the one who constantly checked up on him.? who's the one who was picking him up from the floor when he was having a mental breakdown.? Who was the one who was there with him through this whole thing.? Huh.?" I said while she stared at me annoyed

"Me. And I told you to stop fucking doing that and man up.!" She says 'me' to me and the rest to Ax

I scoff and laugh humorously "it was me love." I said glaring at her "it for sure was me. While you were yelling at him to 'man up' I was comforting him." I said making quotation marks with my fingers at 'man up'

"Leave." Spy said "wha-" "leave." Ax cut her off "you can't do tha-" "he just did.. didn't he.?" I say cutting her off and smirking and she leaves irritated as fuck , do I care though.? Mmmm.... Nahhhhh

"Come on Jeyli you have school tomorrow, Ax is up so you're going tomorrow okay love.?" I say "okay mama.!" She says with food all around her face, and in.. her hair.? How the fuck- im not even gonna ask at this point

"Everyone out out, go get rest, shower, eat, I don't know fuck. Just leave" I say "Zivi take Jeyli.!" I yell "okay ma- sis" she corrects herself .. she was about to call me ma.??? or mama.? I don't know- "Li stay" I said , she's his younger sister so he knows everything about her - so I'm gonna ask him

"Yes Stitch.?" He asks implying 'what the fuck you want bitch' probably not that aggressive but ehhh

"You heard Zivi right.?" I ask "yes, it's weird that she was gonna call you that, she hasn't even said that word since- yea" he said cutting himself off "since what.?" I ask curious now

"Since her mother left.. and since my dad died she hasn't said 'father' or anything with that meaning" he says

"Oh- uhm- okay, you okay.?" I ask and he nods 'yes' "mm, Im here if anything you know this. But can you leave so u can't talk to Ax" I say "uh oh" he says smiling and I laugh while he leaves

"Why.?" I ask him and he just looks at me confused "why would you do that.? why would you do that in front of Jeyli." I ask clearing his confusion

"I didn't do it in front of her. And I was just trying for the pain to go away" he says "you almost died. I could've lost you. Shit Jeyli could've lost you." I say calmly but anyone could know I'm anything but calm

"I know and I'm- listen I'm sorry okay.? It was dumb and I was in pain" he says "I understand that but what you did wasn't the answer Ax. Do you know how badly I cried.? Huh.? How badly we cried.? Bro Jeyli wouldn't eat I had to force her to leave and take a shower. She'd fall asleep in my arms but if I moved even to reposition myself she'd wake up, she feel asleep on top of you crying. It hurt so bad seeing my baby cry like that and not knowing how to stop her pain, I felt so helpless Ax. Please I beg you never do that again. Please Ax please." I said with a soft voice and teary eyes while I sat on his hospital bed

"I promise to everything that I care about I won't ever hurt you guys like that" he pinky promised me and I laid on his chest while he stoked my hair

"Aight Im getting off now this is to affectionate" I say while he laughs, I hate hugs and cuddling, or even getting touched at all but I love them to much to not let them touch/hug me

"I can't wait for the day after tomorrow.!!! I leave here" he says and I laugh "imma go shower and eat and stuff, imma be back tomorrow.! I'll kill you revive you, kill you then revive you again cuz I can't live without you if you try anything that harms yourself" I say and he smiles with adoration in his eyes and I leave smiling