Making You Mine

Sacrificing Their Love

''Tu mujhse kitna pyaar karta hai?''
''Beinteha.''
''Fir bhi kitna?''
''Itna ki dikhane ke liye saat janam bhi kam pad jaye.''
Raavi shuddered at the thought. It was giving her goosebumps.

She was getting ready for her engagement.
It felt so bad. When you love someone and get ready for another it hurts.
It hurts the heart.
The heart bleeds.
But she was unable to do anything. Anything she thought and her thought process would stop seeing the happy faces of her MaasiMa, MasaPaa, AnitaDi and the Pandya Family. She had promised him that she would marry.

Two months ago, she went to Delhi for attending a seminar. She came back to Somnath and was flabbergasted. Her marriage was fixed and she was not even asked whether she was ready for the proposal.

If asked she knew, she would always answer in negative to this proposal. She loved someone else. She could not be another's when she wanted someone else. She had been connected to the one whom she had never thought of like that. She did thought of him but that was all in innocence. She had been in a relationship for the last two years and now she is being connected to someone whom she did not consider that way in the last two years. Her innocence is the reason behind her misery today. She wanted someone to tell her that it was just a joke. Tell her that her marriage has not been fixed.
She was ready for the proposal only for her family and of course her love. She was unable to break her promise.
Tears pooled up in her eyes as she remembered their last conversation two months ago. They had not even met in the last two months.

She could sense someone has climbed up her window. She knew who it was.
''Raavi.'' He called her in a hushed tone placing his hands on hers.
''Kyu kiya aisa tu? Kya mera pyaar itna nazuk tha ki tu mujhe aise chhod sakta hai?'' She questioned him not even turning towards him.
''Wo pyaar karta hai tujhse.'' He said in a calm but defeated tone.
''Aur mai jo tujhse karti hu, uska kya?'' She jerked off his hands. ''Tune mujhe pyaar karna sikhaya, pyaar mein vishwas, bharosa karna sikhaya, lekin tu jo mera bharosa tod raha hai, uska kya?'' He was taken back. ''Shiva you made me dream of a future where there will be only us. Par kyun kar raha hai aisa? Kyun hone de raha hai ye shaadi? Kyun?''
''Please bol de ye sab jhuth hai. Itne saalon se 'Dev Dev' karta aaraha hu, uska punishment hai ye. Please Shiva. Tere bina main jee nahi paungi.''
She broke down.
''Wo mujhse bohot accha hai. He is perfect for you.''
''No he is not. Main thik karungi, kon mere liye perfect hai aur kon nahi. He is not perfect.'' Raavi was being furious.
''Tujhe ye shaadi karne padegi Raavi. Sab bohot khush hai ye rishta se. Tere Maasapa, Maasima, AnitaDi, DharaDi, Gaumbi sab bohot khush hai.''
''Tu bhi? Hamara rishta kya hoga jab meri shaadi hojayega? Bhabi ban jaaungi teri? Manzoor hai tujhe?''
''Mera parivar khush hai. Raavi, mujhe mera bhai ke liye ye bhi manzoor hai.''
''Kyun? Shiva kyun? Kyun harbaar tu sacrifice karega?''
She asked him crying. He tried calming her but to no avail.
''Raavi tu mujhse bohot pyaar karti hai. Tu bhi janti hai mere liye parivar kitna important hai. Tujhe hamari pyaar ki kasam. Tu ye shaadi karegi.''
She was shocked. He used the trump card, their love. No way she can say no to him now.
''Tu reh payega mujhe chodkar?''
''Raavi, Dev tujhse bohot pyaar karega. I promise. Tu mujhe bhul jayegi. Main tujhe khush dekh kar hi rehlunga. Bas iss shaadi ke liye ready hoja. Dekh sab bohot khush hai. Parivar ke liye nahi to sahi mere liye ye shaadi karle. For me.''
''Anything for you and our love. Mai ye shaadi karke move on karne ki try karungi.''
''Shiva ek hug.'' She spoke with hesitation. Shiva engulfed her in a hug.
''Ye hamara last hug tha Raavi. Kal se shaadi tak hum nahi milenge. I need to be ready.''
He was trying to be strong but was unable to be so.

It had been two months. She half-heartedly did her shopping. She was always lost in this two months. Everyone else thought that she was lost in Dev but no she was lost in her Shiva, scratch it, Shiva. He was hers but now she was another's. But she cannot remove him from her heart.

''Sab saccha pyaar safal nahi hota Raavi. Manzil na pahunchne wali pyaar bhi kabhi kabhi yaadgar ban janti hai. Tu bas Dev se shaadi karle. Wo tujhse bohot pyaar karega, wo tujhe bohot khush rakhega. Raavi please Dev ka hath thaam le. Warna wo jee nahi payega. Aur main use kabhi dukh mei dekhke jee nahi paaunga. Main guilt mei mar jaunga. Please. Last baar mera saath de.''

These were the last words Shiva spoke with her before he had jumped out of the window.

That night she had promised him that she would marry Dev and try to move on. But she could not promise that she could see in future that she would be able to accept Dev as her husband. She would try to do so but if she saw him infront of her, she would breakdown. And he also knew that.

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Was in my drafts for some months, so I will be finishing this off soon.