06Diary|from every corner of my mind

Mentally

Having a mental breakdown is quite normal for me. I admit that during this pandemic I have a mental breakdown really often and only when I'm alone because why not? and I ending up cried myself to sleep almost every night and that's very painful. Also being burned out, it's like I don't have the motivation to do anything. Mentally exhausted is effect my whole body. I feel like I work really hard in everything but it's not enough but also I don't have any energy to work any more than this. Whenever I open social media like Instagram I see many of my friends post a story of work at school that they do which is hard work for me and that's the point where it's hit me the most like really hard and when I compare myself to someone (something that I shouldn't do) it makes me feel so bad like why can't I just be like them work as hard as they do. why why why ??? This question in my head really knocks me over so I tried to tell myself that I don't have any energy left and I need to take a rest first and when the energy is restored I will just do whatever I want. So I did by taking a rest from everything no work no everything just chilling getting everything off my head, I know this is hard so just take as much time as I want, and after I took a rest everything become better my energy come back the best thing ever... I still remember what I told myself before I took a rest and that's I want to work hard? yes. But that is before I took a rest and now I don't want to do it anymore lol. I don't really know why but when I look at my friend's stories I just fuck it. Taking a rest I s help and I have a tip for you. If you want to feel like taking a good rest you should get off your phone. For me, this method works very well it feels like you are in the whole new world without anything to make you feel bad from comparing yourself to others and also exercise too. Just tried it trust me it's worth it.