dear reader
this is my thirtieth week in grad school and swimming in self-doubt.
i took all weekend off from anything work-related.
watching Gilmore Girls with lily.
while playing card games.
and having homemade pizza baking as well.
i thought i could pretend that nothing was bothering me.
but she saw underneath my act.
as she kept calling me off.
from my big fudge.
lily: i've won three rounds, i think it's clear that you're better at love
me: i'm not so sure about it
lily: gee, what happened?
me: he mentioned marriage
lily: did he now?
me: he did and it freaked me out
lily: what part of it exactly?
me: i mean... my parent's separated and it's also too early to think about that
lily: do you love him though?
me: of course i do
lily: can you imagine being with anyone else?
me: no, but-
lily: but what? what's the matter?
me: the matter is... t-the matter is in timing
lily: you think the timing is wrong?
me: yeah, isn't it a little weird to get married after less than four months of dating?
lily: no because there's no such a thing as the right timing for marriage
me: so you think i should just go with it with my fear and everything?
lily: yes if you love him
me: okay, but i also wanna pray about it
lily: then pray; i'm sure God has the best advice for you on this topic
me: thanks anyway, you're the best!
lily: all i want is for you to be happy, liv
me: i know that, lil
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Fallen Woman[ON HOLD]
Short StoryOlivia can't talk. But she's still trying to speak up. That's the problem. TRIGGER WARNING: MENTAL ILLNESS, HARD TOPICS LIKE SUICIDE AND HEARTBREAK!!!