dear reader
this is my forty-first week in grad school and i'm very unsteady.
today i had a little hike with my dear friend lili.
we also did a much-needed girls' talk.
because she always seemed to get me.
as well as put me in my place if needed.
she truly is one of a kind.
and i'm so grateful for her.
lili: so, tell me, how are things with Mr. right?
me: don't call him that
lili: you do know that he is the right one, right?
me: i-i guess so
lili: okay, what's up?
me: he just seemed to think my mental illness is a small hill not a whole rock mountain
lili: how so?
me: well, he always says sh!t like "i'll be there until it passes" and "we'll climb it together" and it scares me to my core
lili: why does it scare you?
me: truly?
lili: yes
me: God says the exact same thing and while I hear him, I choose the easy way out; to ignore him and his words as I suffer through it
lili: and hearing Oliver say it scares you because...?
me: I don't want him to stick with me because of my illness
lili: believe me, he doesn't - he loves you
me: so does God lil
lili: you think God does? that he's there because you're wounded?
me: in a way, yes
lili: olivia...
me: don't say that, i know it's stupid and-
lili: no, it's stupid, nothing you feel is stupid
me: yet i feel so
lili: do you want to pray?
me: no
lili: do you want to go back?
me: no
lili: then what do you want?
me: i just want to be free from this pain
lili: oh, baby girl, come here
me: you're still not allowed to pray for me
lili: i make no promises
me: okay
YOU ARE READING
Fallen Woman[ON HOLD]
Short StoryOlivia can't talk. But she's still trying to speak up. That's the problem. TRIGGER WARNING: MENTAL ILLNESS, HARD TOPICS LIKE SUICIDE AND HEARTBREAK!!!