Date with the needle

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Lately I've been seeing the void

The darkness in life never looked so bright

Heartless people besides me

Rattling the sound 

Hissing like vipers

We're all hell bound

Welcome to the green mile

Resident's here rarely smile

I feel trapped, emotions flow

I just want my John to know

Tomorrow

I have a  date with the needle

Today

I would like to say sorry

Not because i'm afraid of dying

Not because i'm repenting

I'm sorry you didn't get to know mommy

Dear John,

It's mom

I love you son

I know you're sad hun

But it's alright

I'll watch out for you

Tuck you in every night

You're probably too small to understand

But someday you'll become a great man

I would like you to know mom's innocent

The drugs I carried in were to pay rent

I didn't mean to take these steps in life

I didn't expect daddy to walk out that night

Drugs lead me to an early death

Something i'll forever have to deal with

Stay away, don't stray 

Just become the man, I dreamt you would

An honest man, a humble man

A man that stands for good

Baby times running out

It's to late to get my life sorted out

But baby don't you worry, not one bit

Just be good and learn to live with it

You're on your own now

But you'll be okay, even though

Life is hard and difficult 

You'll always find your way

And even now when my time is up

Just know mom's smiling 

She hasn't given up

John baby i'll always be your mom

Never will I forget you son

"As her last meal arrives

Sloppy joes and chili fries 

Ginger'ale to quench her thirst

Into tears she begins to burst"

Hey prison guard, sweetheart

Mail this letter to 13th avenue park

My sister Lacey lives there

My baby John is in her care

Thank you for being my friend

Even though i'm on the other end 

of this cell and headed for hell

I can tell that you always meant well

Last rights read

Soon to be dead

Smile on my face

All I can think about 

Is my baby John's embrace

Hands clasped in

As the needle pokes my skin

I can feel the lethal chemicals inside

As I slowly prepare to die

Final breath close

John's cute nose

So beautiful my child

Ahh..."breathes deeply"

Time of death 12:45.

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