Mötley crüe x reader

Seventeen

"Nikki and I are talking! Can't we just stay here and when we're done we get out?" I asked shouting

"Yes, the bus is staying here anyways!" Doc yelled before getting out of the bus with Mick Tommy and Vince

"Oh yeah? We're talking?" He asked smirking

"Shut up and kiss me," I said rolling my eyes

"And what makes you think that I want to?" He asked grabbing my hips trying to pull me closer

"Nikki" I whined like a baby

"Wait here my love" He stated opening the door and stepping out closing it behind him

I jumped on my bed and looked at myself in the mirror, I smiled to myself as I heard him coming back. I lay down on my stomach looking at my book.

"Close your eyes," He said with a deep voice

I closed my eyes bitting my lips in excitement. He turned me around so I could lay on my back, I heard a dark chuckle getting out of his mouth

"Holds still," He said touching my inner thighs which made me shiver

"What are you doing?" I asked giggling

"Making a line before you lose your ability to walk," He said lining up some coke on my inner thighs

"Oh is that so," I said opening my eyes seeing his dark eyes staring into mine

"you're so beautiful" He mumbled quietly still lining the coke

I felt some tears filling up my eyes and second, later tears fell off my cheek but Nikki didn't notice as he snorted his line, he looked up at me and held his nose in his hands. He looked at my eyes carefully and took a few steps back.

"What's wrong?" He asked confused tilting his head a bit

"Nikki sleeping with you isn't the only thing that I want, and I think it's not the same for you," I said whipping my tears

"What do you mean?" He asked looking right into my eyes

"I love you Nikki that's what I mean, and I know you don't like me back and it hurts because...Never mind" I said getting up walking past him

"Wait Y/n...I" He said looking at the ground

"Save it, Nikki, try to have fun tonight alright?" I said smiling softly

"Let me finish my sentence," He said turning around

I just looked at him waiting for an answer

"I'm not gonna deny it alright? Yes I want to sleep with you but it's not the only thing that I want either" He said looking at me

"Then enlight me, Nikki," I said sitting down on the table

"I don't know how to express my feelings but there's one thing that I know, I love you" He utters quietly

"Then why are you sleeping with some girls? Why not me?" I asked as my throat started to squeeze itself

"Because I thought you liked Tommy" He answered looking at the ground

"So you decided to sleep with Roxy and some groupies only to make the pain go away and to make me jealous? That's fucked up Nikki" I said feeling tears falling off my cheeks

"No Y/n no," He said walking closer to me

"I need a drink," I said clearing my throat

"I can make..." 

"I'll go drink with Mick," I said getting out of the bus sniffling whipping my tears.

Razzle was drinking outside with Vince laughing, he looked at me as his smile dropped. Razzle looked at me and made a sad face before he spoke: