Insatiable Habits

Tough Man

🔥Teseo🔥

I steal myself before re-emerging into the living room. Mama is still sound asleep, now with her mouth agape. Diana is no longer on the couch with Cecily but she is still sound asleep, blanket still tightly wrapped around her entire body up to her chin. She's beautiful, face unburdened by the stresses I have caused her.

Diana catches my attention by the sunroom door and I give it to her in full by staring back at her. "Could I speak to you, please; Mr Elias?" She asks calmly, quiet as a mouse so not to disturb Mama and Cecily. I nod and follow her lead into the sunroom. It's warm with a heater blowing in the corner, the glass room brings in all of the sun, nurturing Mama's plants. "So what's the plan?" She instantly inquires when the door clicks shut, I turn to face her; schooling my face not to smirk at her confidence. "My plan?" I counter, hoping she'll exhaust herself and I can continue to leave her in the dark, yet keep her here with my grandparents. She actually scoffs at me and rolls her eyes, a gesture I am certain Cecily learned from her. "Yes sir, the plan with my pregnant daughter, what is your plan for her? To keep her here while you do God knows what?" She pauses for a moment to wipe her clammy hands together. "When you left, she waited for you; every single day revolved around waiting for you to come back and give a damn about her, what is she to you? Other then the obvious bed warmer!" She snaps the last two words out and almost looks taken aback by herself and the sharp tongue she used against me, another behavior Cecily has inherited. I let her words file in and filter out, I've heard this all before, directly from mama, whining about the same thing. They are working very hard at making me feel guilty, an emotion in which I am certain I am unable to feel. Love may have fooled me and trapped me with her but guilt will not.

My fists ball tightly, bleeding my knuckles of color, it's what I do to not show her how much of a dick I really am. "I have outside business, all over the county, I cannot sit here and coddle your daughter twenty-four hours a day, I just can't. As far as my 'plans' for your daughter is that she will marry me, as she agreed. She will raise our child and that's it, what other plans should I have?" Now, I shouldn't have asked her that, my goal is to quickly-as-possibly end this conversation and get the fuck out of here. I'd rather be poking in the eyeballs with needles then continue this conversation.

Diana's face contorts with my bitterness, she doesn't like what I've said and I don't blame her, it really sounded pretty barbaric, keeping her darling daughter barefoot and pregnant. "Sir, please don't do that to Cecily, please; for the life of me I cannot understand why she is so madly in love with you, she'll give up everything just for a glimpse of you, do you not feel an ounce of what she feels for you in return? She gave up everything..." her tone lacks all earlier confidence, now she's just sad and confused, much like I left her daughter on the kitchen counter last night.

I sigh, pinching the bridge of my nose until it feels like I might break my own nose. I do not want to open up to this woman but I want her off of my back for a bit. Sugar coat things a little. "Look, Diana. I have 'feelings' for your daughter, I care about her well-being and we will get married but I work out of town a lot right now so that I can provide the kind of life for her that you expect, eventually I won't have to leave as often and can devote my time to her." I grimace at my words, lies are bitter, I will never completely hand over pieces of what I do to others because I cannot bare the thought of every day in and day out in a house with Cecily and our child, I do enjoy spending time with her, I just don't care to spend every waking moment with her. She looks slightly more satisfied with me after my speech, although I know she'll never fully trust a word that comes out of my mouth, and she doesn't even know half of the amount of pain and suffering I have caused her child. If Cecily hadn't consented to everything that I have done to her...to her delicious body, it would have been aggravated assault and rape.