Short Tales:Poems 2

First Love

You tear me apart so effortlessly,yet one word from you and I'm whole again.
How do I let you go? How do I lose you again after such a short time of finding you?
I held you in my arms, I felt the disconnect not within you but within myself.
It completely broke me because I wanted nothing more than to be one with you.
And I did.
I have given freely to you, unlocking a side to my self I was sure was gone.
A side a was afraid of.
You made me afraid,but I have offered you everything I had, draining what was left of my sanity, defying logic.
I'm sure I was afraid to lose you.
I still am.
But when the physical pains that come with losing you without fully losing you keep me up at nights, and when the anxiety claws at my chest wanting to be let free, I hate myself just a bit more at how willing I am to give so freely and wholly to you, something I've never done for myself.
So now I let you go.
I forgive myself and I forgive you.
And I love you from afar, once again, going back to being perfect strangers, with just a bit more.