◇arcane◇▪︎marlene mckinnon

□ □ flashback □ □

●Sirius's pov●

I look at her like i'm looking in her soul. I know marlene better then anyone

I know if she's saying all this then its better for us, maybe a little break is better.....what? No way thats a better way for us. I want to argue with her about this, i wanna tell her that what she's saying is wrong and we can fix this, i want to scream at the top of my lungs that i love her.

But thats not going to work, i have to give into this to her

I was gonna propose her, i have a ring, a speech, a sappy speech though, but i was gonna do it. I know i love her and she's the best thing thats ever happened to me and it hurst me to even think about breaking up with her, i dont want to, but right now she needs space and time. So i should give it to her

What i should do is argue with her right now but what i really do is nod and stand up and leave

I walk in the living room to see most of them here, everyone except lydia and makai

Flash back to two days ago

●james's pov●

Marlene leaves with sirius on tail and its just me, lily, peter, stella and Matthias left now

"Where's kai and what happened to lydia" lily asks

"Lydia is in some kind of magic comma, i dont know too much about it and kai is...............dead" he says and my eyes trail up to him and then the empty bed beside him

"There was a death eater who threw the death curse at our mother and kai jumped forward, i was busy fighting two maybe i could've done something" Matthias trails of

"I'm so sorry" lily mouths

"It alright" Matthias looked up and walked in the bathroom

Lily came over to me and wrapped her arms around my torso, i shuffled my left hand through her hair and the other around her waist. I love to hold her so close to me, its the best feeling in the world, i dont wanna let go now, who know's what voldemort wants now, i cant let lily get hurt not now, not ever. Its a good thing we're getting married, now i can protect her anytime

The thought of us getting married cracks a smile to my face, even in a situation like this, merlins beard! I really, really love her

"What is going on james" she asks her voice cracks in my shirt. It comes out barely as a whisper, it feels scared

I haven't seen lily so scared in my entire life, she's the strongest person i know and yet along she is scared, whats going on? I dont know!, but what i do know is there is something really wrong the world is doing to her, and i can't let that happen anymore

"It will be okay flower" i whisper in her hair

"I love you" she says and i cant help but smile, "i love you too" i say

●lily's pov●

I just said it, without thinking, i just said i love you to james

And im happy that i said it, i love him and he loves me back, i know he does, but it sounds so perfect coming out of his mouth

I just want to stand here, with his arms around me and me literally sticked to him

●peter's pov●

What the hell

This is wrong, i dont want to do this, i dont want to put my friends through this, i dont want this

But yet again i'm forced to do it, forced to hurt my friends, forced to tear james and lily away from each other, i have never seen him so comfortably happy, ever and i dont want to steal that

He is my best friend, and i dont want to hurt them, i dont want to hurt lily nor marlene or alice or anybody

They are my friends, they dont deserve this, any of this

Flashback ended

●sirius's pov●

I go down and wall in the living room, i sit on the couch between james and remus

"What happend" lily asks

"She broke up with me" i say, laughing a little like a maniac, i look at the ring in my hands

"I was gonna propose her" and they all gasp at this

"What now" james asks.

"I think i'm gonna go take a shower" i say and walk ot of the house, i dont need to look back to see all of them frowning or with a confuesd look

I take off my cloths as i enter my bathroom, i place the ring box on the counter

And get in the shower, turing the nob to its hottest water it can get

"Sirius! You alright?" I hear james say but i keep quite until i hear him leave after a few minutes of silence

I get out of the shower and wrap the towel around my waist, i ruffle my hair and slip in my sweatpants that lily brought, she thought i looked way too uncomfortable in my jeans all day and i like this pants now

I pull my hair in a messy bun, not really focusing on wearing a shirt.i lay down on my bed

Its been a long day

I think to my self, my eyes start to feel heavy and i drift to sleep

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i know, i know its so so so sooooo sappy

But lets just say it, thats what peter felt, i know it
He wouldn't want them to be in any danger non of them, he was forced to do it, i dont ever see anyone give peter's pov and its sad sometimes that no one includes him as a marauder

About james, yes i know thats the most sappy part about the chapter, but again james is hella cute saying all that stuff

I just want to give, everyones pov