i feel stupid,
every time i try to interact
keep doing things i regret
i'm sorry for what i said
think i better stay in black
honestly i don't even have a really hard time communicating with people, maybe, while i'm thinking about it, just sometimes. some days. maybe when the convo is taking me too long, or whatever. but after i've interacted with even 2 or 3 people, i feel so incredibly exhausted. just completely drained. especially when i've talked to people who seemingly do have their lives in order. who actually are making moves, working on their goals, getting things done and being creative. especially then, i feel worthless.
